Try to explain yourself

Mum: Whats up with your generation, why do you always have to drink?
Me: Cause life is horrible after high school and it makes up feel better.
Mum: For what two hours? Why don't you just nap instead.

Why don't we?

Have you ever realised you believe in something but you can not for the life of you justify it when it comes up in a conversation.

Why is it possible to like someones parents so much more than the person?

So much for the older generationaltional thing.

Why do people insist on you befriending someone.

I hate questions that i can't answer.
Its like being afraid of the dark.
It's pointless.
Count Dooku isn't my closet waiting to kill me.
Jimmy Carrey isn't really the cable guy,
nor is he outside my window.
And there isn't a monster under my bed,
Just Libby (Y).

Life's answers in a deck of cards

Aunt's been tarot'ing it up.

So i decided to give it a go.

3 desires and a query.

Two desires are gonna come true.

Which means I'm gonna journey in a distant land.

Find myself.
And prove myself to the world.
I'm actually stoked

I asked if me and Libby are gonna get hitched.

We are, but it won't last.
Or so the cards said.

My final desire I'm gonna keep to myself.

Cause its still pretty personal.

But the cards determined I'm stressed with a lot of inner turmoil.

They suggested i lose the extra baggage
which would be the not-so-friendly friends.
I hate how people change for immature reasons.

To date, i can say wholeheartedly i have only...

8 true friends.
But this i mean friends i have never not wanted to be friends with.
Though only 4 say hi to me when ever I'm on msn.

Ones in Warwick,

Ones in South Australia

Two have full time jobs.

though its cool; their awesome.

The cards told me i should look back;

And figure out who meant what

And who means what;

They said there's someone back there I miss.

WHICH IS CREEPY.

Cause its relatively true.

Maybe i can figure out my life with that deck of cards;

Regardless the outlook is bright

So I'm happy.

So I'm gonna start up Ab Pro again.
Train for half a hour each night.

& just enjoy life till the adventures start.

Amnesty Storm Troopers

Ok so i get out of a lecture

And decide to walk Joe to the bus stop

And Tracy to the myer centre.

And a Amnesty representative was like
"You guys want to sign a petition to stop violence against women?"
I was the only one that said yeah.

Seemed like the thing that would get Karli into my pants.

I kid I kid.

But she would not stop going on.

I was the fool to say i didn't extensively know the background to this women's rights organisation for in Congo.
This woman would not stop talking after i made attempts to flee.

About half way we discovered i wasn't 18 and wasn't to legally sign the petition.
BUT SHE WOULD NOT STOP TALKING!
Joe left like after 10 mins.
He was like "Dejan, cya man"
& I was like bye Joe,

& attempted to walk to him.
But i swear she had mind powers.

Its like that scene in Star Wars Ep 3.
Where Anikin is using Force Choke on Padme.

Except im so much more of a babe than Natalie Portman.

(H)

I'm all for support a cause.
Even if i think the petition isn't going to go anywhere.

Like how am i gonna effect Congo's government?
I'm gonna send you this thing my tutor sent me.

Oh it made me cry from laughter.

I also have an overwhelming urge to do something for the environment.
Kick some ass for mother nature and all that.

I still continue to love ethics.

We argue about religion and sexuality.

Social issues and what not.

Theres someone in the class, thats so obviously gay.

And i get frustrates that he won't come out.

I don't know why.

"fo shizzle mah nizzle"
what do you say to someone that starts a msn convo to you like that?

seriously;

Midnight Study

Its 2.15am.

And I'm still awake.

I'm making great progress with my assignment non the less.

But i tell you, i will never ever ever again;

Want to read a act or a Crime and Misconduct Commission report.

I'm tired to the extent that i have accidentally written

"Sex industry"and "Sexy Industry" numerous times in this report.

I'm blogging to try and restanatise myself before i can continue.

I'm skipping tomorrows morning lecture.

Fuck it.
I know of people that are gonna be at the uni at 7 am to hit the library.

I'd much rather work through the night and sleep in.

All i have to do is deal with dads lectures.

But i guess this is good i guess.
I've gotten my first taste of a full uni assignment.

I'm worried though, its worth 30% of my grade.

And its pretty rushed.

Not to mention that you can not do this assignment in the 2000 word limit.

Its scary though, criteria sheet says they wont read anything over 2500.

An im worried cause they may consider intext referencing to the word limit.

1600~words so far.

Im about 60-70% in.
I'm confident it'll be done by tomorrow.

It was good to get back into training.

Though i felt so out of tune after take a week off.

Stupid Flu.

Ahmad and Mahmud still make me laugh though.

10 year old ninjas that pick fights with me.

But i got no problem, they'll soon get better than me.

But then again its all for the next generation.

Theres no glory or recognition in modesty.

7-9 of Kung-fu'ing and what not.

Half a hour of mucking around and talking about Martial art movies.

Now this.
Oh how my body aches.

I wanted to make a note about something Mr Kent told me.
You eventually lose all your high school friends.
I don't beleive its all true, but theres some truth their.
I find some peoples actions to be immature.
And i know;

"Coming from Dejan"
But then again i even have my limits.

Gabi called today, spent about half a hour.

Poor girl uses up too much credit on me ><.

Oh well interstate friendships are awesome.

Can't wait to go down south for mid-year break.
Its also good to get someones neutral perspective

on events in my life.

Easter Break is coming up.
It doesn't feel like 7 weeks of uni.
Like I've learnt stuff but not an overwhelming amount.
I shall use that 10 days to catch up on all assignments.
I hope.

I can't wait till thursday night.
When i get to delete my history.
Good this assignment has made me good some disturbing things.

For old times sake.

For a long time i am at peace.

Happy with life.

I overcame a great hurdle last night.

One could say after 3 years of procrastination.

And boy am i proud of myself.

I've come to the sad realisation that we have to live in the moment.

Cause i can mosh around my room all i wont.

And i still won't be back at Supernova.
But that won't stop me, gotta do something when everyone asleep.

I'm still stoked that he doesn't hate me.

I still recall my first blog where i planned my life.
He was supposed to be the best man at my wedding.
After all he was the best friend;

Where everyone else failed in comparison too.
He was the Turk to my JD.

But life moves on;
And Memories will remain memories.

Good luck with your life old friend.

If we don't talk again.
I wish you luck with your pursuits.

And if they pay off and you become famous;

I'll be able to say i used to be best friends with that guy.

I feel like I'm getting older.
All i want to do is nap.
I have been everyday.
Though it could just be the procrastinating.

I only regret two things now.
Quitting Taekwondo and leaving this assignment till the last minute.
Wonder if i can do a 2000 word essay in 3 days.
I hope so.

While i can whinge about politics, social issues and people.
I won't.
Today's a good day.
Thank you Karli for our rants.
They make me feel better.

Today i also accomplished something else.

I had a vegetarian sub.

Oh Melly

I'm gonna miss you.
I didn't cry though, cause i'll see you in three weeks.

Still.

Family Rememdies

OK so life is like pretty lame.
Still have the flu.
And now an ear infection.
My calf muscle cramped like ????.
And i have no motivation to plan my birthday.
And i hate being soo selfish.
But for some strange reason; I'm so happy.
My dreams have returned.
Last night i had the best dream, my mind feeze framed it.
In the dream it froze and what would be the 'climax'.
And i woke up and smiled.
The night before i had one that made me laugh.
Me and Karli were discussing Chris brown and Rhianna on bebo.
It had no point but i laughed when i woke.
I love my tutors, i'm so glad there down to earth.
I'm pissed cause i found out single people can't adopt.
And that was my plan B in life.
Karli/Libby, were gonna get married at some stage in our lives.
Supernova was sweeeet.
I got some pokemon cards.
Met some awesome people.
And two more ff action figures to add to my collection.
Tomorrow is mel's going away party.
:(
My ear still hurts.
And i can't see a doctor till monday.
So mum put oil in my ear.
It kinda worked.
Reminds me of when i was sunburnt.
Dad suggested i rub myself with sour cream.
T_T (didn't do it)
I'm sick of things, and people.
I hate ignorant people at uni.
I laugh cause you look down at me.
Fuck it all.
Time to go back to a motto we all once new.
We all loved.
And have forgotten.

Hakuna Matata.