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JSB176: Criminal law in context
Hardest subject this semester.
A crap load of material to review.

All in legal jargan.
I got my assignment back.
I was literally shaking after seeing people get like 20/30.

I need to have a GPA of 5.5 to get into law next year.
What did i get?

26/30!
86.something%
SUCK ON THAT!
So now my GPA is around the 6 mark.
I gotta review what i got for another subject.
For the worksheets.
But yeah i am soo stoked.
Someone actually said; "I can't believe you got better than me"
Ha! I say, I told you not to underestimate me.

I may or may not have done a little jig on campus.

bite me society!

I hate someone.
Like i can not stand to be around them.
There soooo arrogant.
No anyone i blogged about lately.
He purposely sang opera to piss me off.
Put be in a shitty mood.

But then i watched Kung-foo'y for a good hour.
Hes a 40 something year old white man.
Who attempts martial arts on trees.
Wow you can kick a leaf.
Almost as impressive as your inability to gain balance afterwards.

Oh how he amuses us.
I do have intentions of fighting him before i graduate.
Shall be the highlight of my uni experience.

Oh you know whats scary?;
Logging onto facebook.
Clicking the little red flag.
And having.
"Scott Nealson is hitting you with a pillow, hit back?"

It'll be a cold day in hell before i get into a pillow fight with him.

To the dear African-American Lesbian Man-Hating Pirate that holds a special place in my heart

Dear Amanda, this is for you <3.

Confounded

Lost
Confused
Scared
Stressed
Angry
Cold
Oblivious

I had a conversation with myself.
Out loud.
Making eye contact with myself in the mirror.
Asking myself who i wanted to be.
What i wanted to be.
What did i want to be doing.
I broke out into song.
Muttering lyrics in hope of epiphanies.
Fist clenched.
Eyes watered.
No tears were shed.
Contradictory statements.
An effortless struggle.
That left me distraught.

90% of my friends are depressed.
I literally do not have time to be depressed myself.
I looked myself in the eye.
Echoed the same propaganda i feed them to make them happy.
Why didn't it work?!
I can pull it from every angle.
The past 5 months have felt like a psychology degree.

I miss my 'fire'..
My passion.
My raw emotion.
My fighter's spirit.

The world still scares me.
And I don't know if i want to fight to conform.
Kevin Rudds green trading scheme delay angers me.
The notion of the Chinese empire scares me.
Why don't i have the willpower to do anything about it?

I know what I want to do with myself.
I don't know what i want to do with my life.
I tell no one because i know what will happen.
Ridicule.

I just want to find my feet.

"I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering
what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposter's everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned"

Go fuck yourself

Seriously.
I am sick of it.
I am sick of you.
What is it with fucking ignorant people.
Considering themselves god.

You are not better than me.
You never have, never will.
I have know you for quite a while.
So i know its true.
Get of that high horse and shoot yourself.

You are too fucking arrogant.
I can't stand being around you.
I just want to hit myself.
You have no idea what i am capable off.

I know what i am capable off.
Trust me when i say I will make a lot more out of life.
Then you ever will.

Just tired off it.
I know how why i get along with older people better.
The maturity.
I know I am immature at times.
Though when I think your immature;
Others probably thing your a fucking moron.
argh.

Albatross

Today was pretty sweet.
Spent the day with mum.
We went to my uncles.

I managed to hold my ground,

Full Serbian conversation on Materialism.
I've never lasted so long.

Quite proud of myself.
(H)

Over the years i have become quite distant with my relatives.
I never knew how much it affected them.
I swear i saw their eyes gleaming.
Boy did i feel bad.

So I'm gonna make an effort to see 'em more often.
& spend time with mum and dad.

I had the option of going 'clubbing' with cousins tonight.
Like Serb only clubbing.
I passed, only one cousin was going.
I don't want to be a tag along.
It's also hard.
Cause i'm 18 and their 24-30.
I love 'em and such.
Just need to get over my self-doubt.
& dance.

Oh interesting fact.
Amongst their remenising.
I learnt back when mum and cousins were growing up.
If a person had their watch upside down;

I mean in the sense the clock part

was on the wirst; it was a sign they were in a relationship.
Does that apply here?

Excited about tomorrow.
Protest for refugee rights.
I don't know how strongly I'm for it.
We've been discussing it a lot in Ethics.
So I'm hearing both sides.
Its a hard topic.
I wish it was simpler, but its not.
Besides, everyone should have rights.
Right?
I think so, so I'll be there.

I spoke to Ben today.
4 months i do believe.
It was nice.
You don't talk to people for a while.
Then it just hits you how much you missed them.
I know its not likely I'm gonna stay in touch with all my friends.
I'm gonna try like hell non the less.

Comps back!
Online gaming.
It's good to talk to old friends.
A couple i befriended are having a baby.
I'm excited, i get emails from them occasionally.
She should be due really really soon.
Though I see now how people really overreact.
I befriended a french couple.
Learnt a few things.
I don't log on for a few weeks.
They break up.
"Oh big deal dejan" you say?

Jesus Christ.
I log on today.
He starts talking.
"She's this, she's that"
"Tell me if she says anything bad about me won't you?"
?_?

No offence.
In my experience this is the first time a guy's overreacted.
Aside from the whole,
"I love her one day, i hate her the next" thing
wtf
But yeah she was fine about it.
Didn't acknowledge me.
Bitch :L
I kid.
Though people gotta take a chill pill these days.

Thus is life so far.
(y)
I miss the consistency of friends.
I hope it'll get better.
I just miss hugging.
Walkway hugging.
Why is packed to the rafters winning so many logies?

Albatross->Word of the day->The little rescuers->
The boobs shot->'laughing out loud'.

The only winners tonight are the children

Karli thank you so much for getting me out of the house.
It was good to see the gang.

I fund raised for the first time.
Oh the rejection.
But it was worth it.
We made a gang of 15 year olds;

doing a very similar thing.
Handing out flyers instead of collecting.

I got to see my first NRL Game.

Ok like tv wise its boring like fuck.
But we all got into it.
Haha it was quite fun.

Train ride home.
Memorable!
We sang with a Jamaican guy.
Then they left.
So we continued to sing.
The girls dance.

Train security came.
We got scared.
Then they sang along.
Oh how it was funny.
And they danced!
A 60 something year old man shuffling.

Oh twas a wonderful night.

Risible

Oh to be risible again;

First of all;
Karli your blog topic is extension cords.
Jayce I'm glad someone saw the depth and raw emotion XD
Libby, you're corpulent with a microphallus.

Stupid mind, i hate you so.
I spent hours rethinking that conversation.
Until i convinced myself it was my fault and i felt bad.
wtf!

I recall a cutscene of the first video game i feel inlove with.
The protagonist decribes that he hates sleeping;

'cause its the only time theres no sound to silence his thoughts.
I never thought it would be me.

Today wasn't all to great.
I felt out of place in my first lecture.
& i felt i voiced my opinion's to much in the second.
I hate when no one else will talk.

I got my computer back.
Oh how it feels so good to have my scapegoat back.
Stupid reality.

Haha i overheard a economics study group.
Oh god how it sounded like ours.
I miss that class most of all.

It doesn't make choosing a degree all that much easier.
I feel like I'm shooting in the dark.

Kinda crushed,
We're not moving.
Bank wanted a $5-10,000 deposit.
We don't have that much money.

Dad said next year if we start to save.
We lose $7000 of government grant money though.
I know i now need to get a job.
I don't want to work and do Uni.
But i have no choice now.

You know what makes my day?
Cadbury adds.
First Gorilla's now possessed children.
The spontaneuity puts a smile on your face.