To be or not to be; that is the question

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The walk of shame

While everyone is out having fun on a exciting Friday night i thought i would cope with my insomnia with a blog. This is the third time I've attempted to write this one, each time my mood has changed, from angry to mellow to confused.

Life's going pretty well i guess. I got accepted into the course i wanted and I'm making money. Something is different, i have a routine. It's not like a uni routine because that's always been pretty flexible. A lot of stuff has been happening as of late and it's been building up so i think its time i got it off my chest.

I'm scared first and foremost. 2010 is going to be quite an experience. I'll officially be doing a double degree and the subjects are going to get harder to I'm expecting a larger work load. I'm gonna try and maintain some form of employment cause quite frankly it's nice to have some income and be able to go out. Granted i don't go out, but i want that to change. I want more parties, i want more clubbing, i want more drunken moments and shitty awkward dancing with friends cause that kind of shit makes me happy.

I know its hypocrisy saying i want to party more often when uni is only going to get tougher but you know what I'll find a way to do it. Cause while it is novel to spend the occasional Friday night alone i don't want to spend every Friday night alone, you know?

Friendship has been a somewhat touchy subject as of late but you know what, fuck it. I've lost my share of friends this year, and I'm not sure what to think of it. It's nice to know that there are people i expected not to lose contact with that have stayed quite good friends with. I want more friends cause i rarely see those kids from high school. Next year's going to be difficult maturity with immaturity. I know it sounds strange but we're growing up as much as i hate to admit it. I still want to have fun but without the bitching. I know 25 year old's that have more fun then we do folks. I'll probably drop more friends cause I'm sick of people making me like shit. I'm sick of people ignoring me cause i left their party early cause i felt like utter shit, I'm sick of people ignoring me cause i didn't take their side in an stupid argument that i had no point of being in, I'm sick of people claiming to be my friends one day and then bitching about me on facebook, like seriously i know 12 year old's that wouldn't do that.

Rebecca Freemantle; it's been a while fatty. You were one of my best friends in high school, i probably told you things no one else knows, we dated, we broke up and we haven't talked from April till December. Thanks to Karli we went clubbing one day. I felt so awkward that night, i literally waited half a hour before i gave you a hug because i didn't know how to act around you. Though I'm glad we managed to get things back on tracks though i know your not going to be the friends that texts me every now and then or talks to me on msn. I'll deal with it; it was good to see you.

This year i also did something i haven't done since grade 10 and that was work with friends. Pizza Hut Call Centre lead to so many friendships, one notable being Amanda McIntyre. I'm pretty sure I'll still stay friends with people from Gametraders after my time is up, even if it is to go back and just bug people and make Pete order stuff in for me.

This year friendship has changed on so many levels. I experienced long distance friendships with dear friends that moved to Warwick and South Australia. I became really close with someone i hooked up with one random night and talk to pretty much ever opportunity i get, and i befriended this pretty amazing girl that always makes me laugh and calls me every single day and we will always find something to talk about and it just makes me smile, today's topic was the fact that she was willing to wax my testicles if i ever asked, though i wont cause i worry she'll wax one off or I'll bleed to death.

As of late I've become physically tired. I work, i nap, i watch TV and eat, then i go to sleep and i wake up and go to work, contemplating just going back to sleep and getting fired. Don't get me wrong i love my job and all but its like I'm just tired all the time even though my job isn't physically demanding. I worry cause that is what awaits us after we graduate university, we go work full time. On my days off I'm too tired to plan anything exciting with my friends so i don't want to become a social hermit. Work was nice cause like i think i got used to the fact that i would have something to talk with Alec, Libby, Nat, Pete and Michael and then go home and have a conversation with a family member, spam a bit on facebook then go online. Though i want random spontaneity, unicycles, toga parties and other random shit.

I want to change the person i am, on so many levels. Quite frankly I'm over one night stands and i just don't see the merit in getting laid, it's like it's become a chore (Very masculine Dejan), the truth is i would much rather have a chicken sandwich and some rice than a blow job from someone who I'm gonna find completely incompetent and regret in 12 hours. Ironic enough a great friend did originate from a one night stand but hey with like 1/12 the statistics aren't great. Sneaking out was fun when i first started, the shit i did and where i did it was just another life experience. It was a triumph just because i was so sick of people making assumptions about what i wouldn't do and having my parent's constantly nag and steer me in a certain direction. I'm not going to tell my mother i once fucked on a park bench, that someone tore my foreskin and i bled out or the fact that i hooked up with someone almost a decade older than me. Though the fact that i have done it is something i can share, and when someone gloats about hooking with someone older or somewhere exciting i can talk about it cause i have done it. I don't expect you understand, your most likely rolling your eyes at me while reading this and contemplating clicking the little 'x' icon but hey it's a guy thing i guess.

If i play my cards right next I'll could reach Calon Keluarga. Simply put this is the equivalent of a black belt. Though this belt is more than just an accessory its basically an invitation a number of trials. I have to be physically and mentally competent and with it I'll probably end up teaching. Which every belt from this point forward I'll be required to learn ever detail about certain forms one by one along with the philosophy and strengths and weakness's of it. I'm honestly scared and i don't think ill be ready mentally for it. For my level now I'm fine, though within the next 6-7 months I'll probably end having to hit the gym. I had to teach this week, we had a new guy come. Oh god it's so much harder than i thought. Though it's hard not just because you don't know how to interact but the fact is this guy was at least 3-4 years older than me and i just felt disrespectful giving commands. I've decided I'm not going to do the tournament in Indonesia this year, while it would be great to go, i know I'm not the best in the class, and i really don't want to choke in front of a grand audience, I'll need to build up the self confidence a bit too. Oh i started weapons training on Thursday, we didn't use real swords but dummy ones, it's just not what you expect but fun non the less.

It's been a hour and tomorrow i have a long day. I have to go Christmas shopping, then work, then birthday shopping, then have to find my way to Carindale for a birthday of a close friend who i have not seen since Pre-April. Then I get to see a bunch of you kids at Karli's little BBQ Sunday, quite exciting. I'll leave on this note; There will be one more blog before the end of the year and it will be a check list of sorts to what i want to achieve in 2010, life goes on no matter how bad you fuck up, you just have to get over things and i intend to do the same, i hope we're all friends next year. This year has been an experience and thank you for everything, the good, the bad and the memories.

=)

Lost in Stereo

There was a time where my life was the movie to the song

Walls - Boys like Girls

But things have changed. I got a job. Don't get me wrong but I've changed as of late. I seem to have a knack for pissing people off. The arguments are petty if i told a random by stander I'm pretty sure i would have the moral high ground, I've also been in arguments consisting of more than one person and people have told me i was in the right so i dunno, I'm just tired a lot but we'll see how the holidays go.

Take a bow

Oh, how about a round of applause? Yeah, standing ovation?

Our literature tells us a fable of a pot and a kettle, where the pot accused the kettle of hypocrisy where as the idiom reveals that is was the pot who was the hypocrite.

I know, the start, Dejan and Rhianna, like what the fuck. It's not the end of the world, we'll not tonight anyway, gather and your windows and peer into the sky and you shall not see no skeletons riding flaming horses. It was just the best way to express my state of mind.

But enough of that, there are more pressing matters . So last Sunday Rove announced he would no longer host his show, which quite amusingly i almost cried during that night. I know is silly and sentimental, but it's like Pokemon. If we were aware that Pokemon was ending while we we're watching it or to what standard it would fall too, we would have shed tears as well. Rove has been a huge part of my life for the past few years, i recall it was the main topic during Wednesday access's during early high school. Me and my best friend at the time would always talk about the hilarity because Moland would bore us. I don't' know what to feel, like he was my hero and i am aware he has more important things in his life than pleasing me every Sunday and making me laugh (sounds kinky i know, but if only) but yeah i don't know how to take it, I'm gonna miss Rove, as much as i miss lunch times at school.

I'm working now, first time since like grade 11. It's my dream job. I work with one of my best friends, my manger is awesome and the people i work with are great. I work in Gametraders i literally work in a world where other people speak nerd, and they great up playing what i played and know why i play. It's amazing, its like a little cocoon in society where people just get along and no one bitches, sure there are egos but I'm a conceded bastard and i can hold my own. I'm happy I'm getting heaps of hours and I'm learning about the industry i want to break into while doing Uni because few people actually get to do a job they love, and I'm one of them.

Tomorrow I'm hanging I'm getting my tickets for Eurobeat, then seeing that with Karli on Friday night. It's long overdue and i need to make times to see other people but yeah I'll get that done sometime this year. I'm gonna write up a list of achievements for this holiday because i need some goals to achieve, working is nice it gives my life meaning and i like the flow of income but i need somethings to boost mentally.

I just spent the last hour with Kevin, its now 1am. Though Kevin is Kevin and he's grand. He's always good for a laugh and it's what i needed. Today's been average, work makes me tired, i nap after work but yeah i need it. I'm putting a Wii on layby on Saturday! Exciting stuff.

Svidaniya.

Grandeur

In 1560, Nobunaga Oda defeated the forces of Yoshimoto Imagawa at the battle of Okehazama changing the fate of Japan forever.

In 1893 Charles Strite invented the pop-up toaster, changing breakfast forever.

In 1928 Walter Dieme invented bubble gum, changing childhoods forever.

In 1993 a group called the Backstreet Boys formed, and changed the face of music for Generation Y forever.

In 1995 the Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers aired, changing the face of awesome forever.

On 30/06/1997, the Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone was released changing children's imaginations forever.

19 May 2005 George Lucas's Saga was complete with the Australian release date of Star Wars Episode Three: Revenge of the Sith, which changed the world forever in the regards that nerds finally had something more enjoyable than internet porn; forever.

September 8th, 1998 the world fell in love with a 10 year old named Ash Ketchum and a yellow electric rodent called Pikachu, changing the world for ever.

Nov 4th, 2008 the people voted Barack Obama the 44th president of the United States, changing the face of democracy forever.

On the 13/11/2009; pale white kid completes first year of uni.

Victory on many front's.
Life is grand.

Doviđenja

Apt

I think I'm ready for my legal foundations exam tomorrow. It's my last, my hardest, my most terrifying. For the past two days I've literally state down and not left my room until i have gone through the material i felt i needed to go through the exam. For a man that doesn't study spending 8 hours straight reading and writing is unnatural. Though, what must be done, must be done.

I'm worrying about the essay question, because its random so i can't really prepare for it. I've come to realise a few things so i guess its time to ponder. The notion of work worries me in the sense that i think i eliminates the fun from you. Once you theories its because you're most likely gonna deal with people that you don't get along with, hence you become frustrated, you spend too long at your place of work and you become tired. I don't really want to become 'less fun', granted i know ill have to mature at some stage, but something likes like sexual innuendo's i think I'm gonna keep those up as long as i have the capability to pee standing up, perhaps even beyond that time; stating 'that's what she said' to my grandchildren seems like a delightful idea.

Relationships; to be quite frank at our age people are taking them far to seriously. I've found myself distancing from people that devote their entire life to one person. I'm not saying it's stupid but illogical perhaps? If we're going to be 'friends' i would like you on call and have the ability to hang out, and by hang out i don't mean i want to be your third wheel. Also if you intend on giving your all to this person, don't expect me to pick you up if it fall's apart, it's a logical choice. I see more and more of my friends going into the cycle and my stomach churns at the notion that one day i could be this conceded. Sure i get a partner is superior to friends in some regards but i just don't think i could just rely on one person, even in regards of marriage, i don't just want to be stuck at work and then at home, i mean like i still want to have friends and have fun.

Lately I've been happier, because I've been setting goals. They've been minute goals but i have been accomplishing them non the less. The new theory is if you have no goal for the day or the week, you have nothing to be be happy about because you have nothing to achieve, unless you get some surprise, so perhaps more goals for the holidays?

Vida parayunnu

Acrimony

This is everything i need to know for ONE question
On my exam on friday

Purpose of the acts interpretation act
Extrinsic material
Intrinsic material
Long title v short title of an act
Preambles
Headings to parts, divisions, etc of an act
Marginal Notes
Commencement of acts
Acts silent as to commencement
Date of assent or proclamation
Time of commencement of act
Retrospectively
Power of the Australian government to act retrospectively
Syntactical presumptions
Ejusdem Generis
Rebuttal of ejusdem generis
Noscitur a sociis
An act is to be read as a whole rule
Dictionaries rules
Interpretation provisions
Miscellaneous Act interpretation act provisions
Gender rules
Number rules
Body corporate rules
Measurement of time rules
Legal assumptions
General approaches to statutory interpretation
The literal rule
The golden rule
The mischief rule
Ascertainment of purpose and object
The operations of section 15AA and s14A
Relationship with the mischief rule
Permitted use of s15AA and s14A

vs

What she has to know for a 'career'

French acrylic
French Gel
Gel Toes
Pedicures

If she bitches on facebook one more time;
I will smite her

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