I'm beaming. Glowing and seeping. (not really).
Life just keeps on getting better. Really getting to used to 2010. I've been uber busy this week. Granted i haven't had much time to relax beaus I'm traveling all over the place but it's actually quite nice to be busy for once in a while. social butterfly ftw.
Last night i went to Lauren's. She made me dinner and desert. <3.> Escape from Guantanamo Bay. The way there was pretty fucking hilarious. She couldn't find me in the city but did so after 20 minutes. So we were yelling on the phone to each other, she drove past waving her hands and i had to run a few streets so we could find somewhere to pull over. I saw Clayton, gave him a hug; miss that kid.
I've gone from 850 to 470 in three days. Urgh i need to save up. South Australia, Playstation 3, Supernova, Supernova Costume, Soundwave and CSS+OC merchandise + all the other bits and pieces. Mum and Dad bought the sister a laptop. I had to translate nerd, we found a decent one after a while. They also surprised me by buying me portable aircon. Oh things are grand, life is sweet, i look forward to the future.
"This is my story"
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Objectum Sexuality
If it was possible, i would have sex with my new Ipod docking station. <3<3<3
Like seriously, this thing just makes me so happy. If only it came with a toasted-sandwich attachment, i would take a trip to Florida so we could elope. I'm going to name him Edifier, because that's the brand name.
I had lunch with Amanda today. We hit Noodlebox then Garden City. Safe to say i think she was disappointed in the underwear i chose. I'll get the monkey ones next time. I spent $250 today, i love having money, i hate spending money, oh well.
Bribie Island this Friday. Have to get my Hawaiian on. I cleaned my room today. The season cleaning. I found so much stuff. I found the psychology stuff from that day Karli and I went to Griffith. I found pictures and notes signed from dags, birthday cards from people i don't talk to, notes from people that have decided not to keep me in their lives. I'll still keep it all though. Just a lot of memories found today, quite overwhelming.
Like seriously, this thing just makes me so happy. If only it came with a toasted-sandwich attachment, i would take a trip to Florida so we could elope. I'm going to name him Edifier, because that's the brand name.
I had lunch with Amanda today. We hit Noodlebox then Garden City. Safe to say i think she was disappointed in the underwear i chose. I'll get the monkey ones next time. I spent $250 today, i love having money, i hate spending money, oh well.
Bribie Island this Friday. Have to get my Hawaiian on. I cleaned my room today. The season cleaning. I found so much stuff. I found the psychology stuff from that day Karli and I went to Griffith. I found pictures and notes signed from dags, birthday cards from people i don't talk to, notes from people that have decided not to keep me in their lives. I'll still keep it all though. Just a lot of memories found today, quite overwhelming.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Fireworks
Eh i don't know what to blog about.
I was initially going to complain about a few things. Though i have a friend that's going in for surgery, i got a friend that's fighting a life altering condition; why do they want to read my winging? I'm not conceded and i am grateful for that.
So I'm staying at Game Traders. Thursday i had a talk with Michael. My life is going to change. We both came to the realisation that your hobby can't be what you do for a job. I used to play video games more than anything else. It kinda feels like a choir. I mean i talk about them, i sell them, i look at them, i look up things about them, i watch people play them. Don't get me wrong I love my job, i wouldn't want to be anywhere else, it's just that I'm going to have to find a new hobby.
I went on a music downloading frenzy today. Quite happy with it, I'm going to buy a ipod docking station. I kinda regret getting a ipod. Once you get it, you can't live without it. Like before i could easily make the 40 minute trip to uni without any music, i would just day dream. Now i struggle walking to the bus stop without music. New friends are influencing my taste in music. I downloaded some Rise Against stuff, it's pretty sweet.
This weekend i went over the Sara and Christen's again. Fourth weekend in a row. Pokemon marathon with them, Katrina and Glen. We got through like 8 movies. Watched a whole bunch of random movies in between. Me and Christen went pretty nerd. My pokedex went from 285 to 370 in a weekend. Quite an achievement. We also started throwing the dildo at each other. We also started talking about Supernova. I think i'm either gonna get a fully body pikachu costume or a moogle one.
I think I'm going to try for a girlfriend this year. Though the saddest thing is, after this holiday and people's shit. I'll probably also judge her on her sense of grammar.
I feed bad i can't hang out with all my friends, it's weird having a social life. It's not a social life but it feels like one when you have a job. So that's life for the time being. No drama's, somewhat uneventful but I'm happy.
Revenge loves company, three makes it a crowd.
I was initially going to complain about a few things. Though i have a friend that's going in for surgery, i got a friend that's fighting a life altering condition; why do they want to read my winging? I'm not conceded and i am grateful for that.
So I'm staying at Game Traders. Thursday i had a talk with Michael. My life is going to change. We both came to the realisation that your hobby can't be what you do for a job. I used to play video games more than anything else. It kinda feels like a choir. I mean i talk about them, i sell them, i look at them, i look up things about them, i watch people play them. Don't get me wrong I love my job, i wouldn't want to be anywhere else, it's just that I'm going to have to find a new hobby.
I went on a music downloading frenzy today. Quite happy with it, I'm going to buy a ipod docking station. I kinda regret getting a ipod. Once you get it, you can't live without it. Like before i could easily make the 40 minute trip to uni without any music, i would just day dream. Now i struggle walking to the bus stop without music. New friends are influencing my taste in music. I downloaded some Rise Against stuff, it's pretty sweet.
This weekend i went over the Sara and Christen's again. Fourth weekend in a row. Pokemon marathon with them, Katrina and Glen. We got through like 8 movies. Watched a whole bunch of random movies in between. Me and Christen went pretty nerd. My pokedex went from 285 to 370 in a weekend. Quite an achievement. We also started throwing the dildo at each other. We also started talking about Supernova. I think i'm either gonna get a fully body pikachu costume or a moogle one.
I think I'm going to try for a girlfriend this year. Though the saddest thing is, after this holiday and people's shit. I'll probably also judge her on her sense of grammar.
I feed bad i can't hang out with all my friends, it's weird having a social life. It's not a social life but it feels like one when you have a job. So that's life for the time being. No drama's, somewhat uneventful but I'm happy.
Revenge loves company, three makes it a crowd.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Welcome to my life
2010 - started of great, keeps getting better really.
It might be foolish to assume that 2010 will be my year, butttttttt it just might. Sorry if I'm not allowed to be a optimistic. Pete's decided to keep me on at Game traders. /stoked. I'm just going to be doing like 5-10 hours and covering for people when need be. Though to be honest that's all i need. When uni starts up again there's no way I'm going to want to work like 30 hours a week. Though it does lead me to think, with uni and work; where will my friends fit in?
I'm glad a fair few of my friends are in university and/or working. It's just easier because they know how the system works. I'm could not be more excited about Soundwave. Paramore, You Me At Six, All Time Low and My Chemical Romance. Then Owl City and Cobra Starship later on.
I intend on saving up for a PS3 for my birthday, then i can play FF13 lag free. This has just motivated me to stick with my new years resolution. Today's Christmas Eve. Orthodox semi-fast. We give up read meat and dairy products. Which is basically 99.95% of my diet. I had vegetarian subs for breakfast and lunch. Then fish for dinner. Oh how i hate fish. Oh how i miss chicken. We lit the tree tonight. It was novel but it made me smile. I'm just a lot happier lately. We decided to watch a movie as a family, the old school Disney Robin Hood.
To the new year, new friends, new experiences and adventures.
Random fact: I googled synonyms for happy, one of the results was intoxicated. lol
It might be foolish to assume that 2010 will be my year, butttttttt it just might. Sorry if I'm not allowed to be a optimistic. Pete's decided to keep me on at Game traders. /stoked. I'm just going to be doing like 5-10 hours and covering for people when need be. Though to be honest that's all i need. When uni starts up again there's no way I'm going to want to work like 30 hours a week. Though it does lead me to think, with uni and work; where will my friends fit in?
I'm glad a fair few of my friends are in university and/or working. It's just easier because they know how the system works. I'm could not be more excited about Soundwave. Paramore, You Me At Six, All Time Low and My Chemical Romance. Then Owl City and Cobra Starship later on.
I intend on saving up for a PS3 for my birthday, then i can play FF13 lag free. This has just motivated me to stick with my new years resolution. Today's Christmas Eve. Orthodox semi-fast. We give up read meat and dairy products. Which is basically 99.95% of my diet. I had vegetarian subs for breakfast and lunch. Then fish for dinner. Oh how i hate fish. Oh how i miss chicken. We lit the tree tonight. It was novel but it made me smile. I'm just a lot happier lately. We decided to watch a movie as a family, the old school Disney Robin Hood.
To the new year, new friends, new experiences and adventures.
Random fact: I googled synonyms for happy, one of the results was intoxicated. lol
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Another year, another middle class white guy
Resolute: firm in purpose or belief, characterized by firmness and determination wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
There was another word i wanted to define, 'faith' but i couldn't find a definition i liked. New years eve was the best. I'm sad to say i couldn't have spent it with everyone i wanted to. I had 6 invitations for new years eve celebrations, four came the night beforehand. I was torn between Mr Popular and Mr Last Minute. Though i did the logical thing and went with my first invite, sad to say i wasn't able to spend it with my family, my extended family or people i went to school with, i still had a awesome time. I met a lot of new people, i love drunks; there is no such thing as an angry drunk. There's happy and horny. Granted i did see people have sex just about 2m away from me, was amusing. I made my new years resolution but whether I'm going to stick to it is a different story. I would like to think i am going but i don't know.
Three blogs have been punished on my stream update, and non of them are a cheery blog. I don't get it. Why are you already doubting the year before it has even begun? 2009 was a year we all won't forget. It was our first year out of high school, we faced the world and got knocked down a few times, some more than others. If you don't change your mindset, things unfortunately will never change. My life is going to remain relatively the same for a while, I'm going to be in university full time for at least another 5 years. It's not the most exciting thought to wake up too. And when it comes to the end, I'll be afraid to leave my routine just like i was with high school. I see people with potential within my life and are letting it just go to waste. I know that I'm going to see people and friends who by the time our 10 year anniversary comes around will be still working the same job they are now, because they lack the resolve to move forward onto better things. I know it's going to be hard to talk my sister into going to university instead of tafe.
On the other hand, I'm glad to have friends that are going all out. I talked with Ben yesterday he came into work. He just graduated high school last year, he got a OP8, he's decided on what he wants to do this year, hes got his job, he's planning on moving out. Like i wish i had the capability to do all that but i don't, it's not the person i am.
Though we're but four days into the new year and I've already noticed changes. I've become some what more confident in who i am. When at parties i always limit what i say, observe and psychoanalyse people in order to figure out what to say. Though i haven't done that as of late, I'm doing my do first, think later approach and it's working just fine. I'm doing things that needed to be done long ago because I'm tired of being behind and want to get in front. I'm being spontaneous, last night i brought tickets to Cobra Starship+Owl City. To be honest I'm going more for Owl City but hey, a means to an end. Got a few people together. I'm slowly, surely but very slowly planning to catch up with most friends, i might not have asked you yet, but the plans are set in motion.
I'm going to complain less. Not about other people, but about myself. Last year i learnt about a very close friend, who reads this blog who told me something she held dear to herself. She was never one to complain or seek sympathy. She just taught me a valuable lesson while i was crying and having a panic attack. She taught me that no matter how bad you think you have it, there is someone worse off than you. We all know this but chose to ignore it because we don't personally know any political prisoners, starving children or people who's lives have been ravaged by disease.
I recently uploaded 88 photos taken at various moments in 2009. Not everyone that was apart of my life was in those photo's but still i smiled when i went over them. And i am sure i was not the only one who recalled memories and adventures. Even high school ones about my old couch. I look forward to taking more photos, more adventures and more friends.
I know most people will ignore this blog, and still maintain their lives, regardless how miserable it may be, because after all we're just a bunch of kids drunk on our own circumstances.
There was another word i wanted to define, 'faith' but i couldn't find a definition i liked. New years eve was the best. I'm sad to say i couldn't have spent it with everyone i wanted to. I had 6 invitations for new years eve celebrations, four came the night beforehand. I was torn between Mr Popular and Mr Last Minute. Though i did the logical thing and went with my first invite, sad to say i wasn't able to spend it with my family, my extended family or people i went to school with, i still had a awesome time. I met a lot of new people, i love drunks; there is no such thing as an angry drunk. There's happy and horny. Granted i did see people have sex just about 2m away from me, was amusing. I made my new years resolution but whether I'm going to stick to it is a different story. I would like to think i am going but i don't know.
Three blogs have been punished on my stream update, and non of them are a cheery blog. I don't get it. Why are you already doubting the year before it has even begun? 2009 was a year we all won't forget. It was our first year out of high school, we faced the world and got knocked down a few times, some more than others. If you don't change your mindset, things unfortunately will never change. My life is going to remain relatively the same for a while, I'm going to be in university full time for at least another 5 years. It's not the most exciting thought to wake up too. And when it comes to the end, I'll be afraid to leave my routine just like i was with high school. I see people with potential within my life and are letting it just go to waste. I know that I'm going to see people and friends who by the time our 10 year anniversary comes around will be still working the same job they are now, because they lack the resolve to move forward onto better things. I know it's going to be hard to talk my sister into going to university instead of tafe.
On the other hand, I'm glad to have friends that are going all out. I talked with Ben yesterday he came into work. He just graduated high school last year, he got a OP8, he's decided on what he wants to do this year, hes got his job, he's planning on moving out. Like i wish i had the capability to do all that but i don't, it's not the person i am.
Though we're but four days into the new year and I've already noticed changes. I've become some what more confident in who i am. When at parties i always limit what i say, observe and psychoanalyse people in order to figure out what to say. Though i haven't done that as of late, I'm doing my do first, think later approach and it's working just fine. I'm doing things that needed to be done long ago because I'm tired of being behind and want to get in front. I'm being spontaneous, last night i brought tickets to Cobra Starship+Owl City. To be honest I'm going more for Owl City but hey, a means to an end. Got a few people together. I'm slowly, surely but very slowly planning to catch up with most friends, i might not have asked you yet, but the plans are set in motion.
I'm going to complain less. Not about other people, but about myself. Last year i learnt about a very close friend, who reads this blog who told me something she held dear to herself. She was never one to complain or seek sympathy. She just taught me a valuable lesson while i was crying and having a panic attack. She taught me that no matter how bad you think you have it, there is someone worse off than you. We all know this but chose to ignore it because we don't personally know any political prisoners, starving children or people who's lives have been ravaged by disease.
I recently uploaded 88 photos taken at various moments in 2009. Not everyone that was apart of my life was in those photo's but still i smiled when i went over them. And i am sure i was not the only one who recalled memories and adventures. Even high school ones about my old couch. I look forward to taking more photos, more adventures and more friends.
I know most people will ignore this blog, and still maintain their lives, regardless how miserable it may be, because after all we're just a bunch of kids drunk on our own circumstances.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Role Call
So 2009 comes to a close. By far this has been the most frightening year, but i feel proud about the amount of crap, people and situations i overcame. Especially in regards to uni. I don't know quite what to say. Life has changed significantly, I'm just really stoked that even though most of my friends have either become sleep deprived uni students, workaholics or found themselves involved in romance there's still a little bit of time left for me. Thanks everyone, i preferably would like to spoon a little bit more in 2010, so let's try and make some time for that aye?
Happy new year dear friends and creepy stalkers.
Happy new year dear friends and creepy stalkers.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
New Chapter
This blog is going to be a happy blog, but first of all i need to rant about something that's been frustrating me. I'll start off with a few definitions:
Testicles: male reproductive organs located in the scrotum that produce sperm and the male hormone, testosterone www.gyneconline.net/eng/abc.htm
Pride: the feeling of self-respect and personal worth wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
Manhood: the state of being a man; manly qualities wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl.webwn
My pet peeve as of late is clingy, lonely pathetic guys. I am sick about guys that have been in relationships for like two weeks and being with the one. Then when something horrible happens they go into a spiral of depression and can't believe how their heart has been torn out and their soul shredded. I'm sick of hearing about guys cyber stalking their girlfriends, like seriously. I am sick about hearing guys cry cause a girl doesn't like them or she did this and that with another man. Like seriously you are a fucking tool if you expect monogamy from someone you haven't even been dating for at least 6 months. Humans fuck up, shit happens, we have urges, be thankful it's just a sexual urge and not a I'm going to stab you while you sleep urge. My facebook news feed was spammed today by two individuals posting about how their girlfriend now hates them, they were posted lyrics from love songs and seeking sympathy because their life no longer had meaning. Like seriously, grow a god damn pair of testicles, rediscover some self-respect and man the fuck up.
Though on a happier note, I've changed a bit. We all have the notion of moving out and living on our own. For a while i thought i wouldn't be able to do it. I know i won't be doing it for a while because of uni the fact is simple, I'm logically i unfortunately have a working brain and know that i can't afford it at this age. Though there was always something else about moving out. It was the fear thing, a lack of confidence. Like graduating high school everyone seemed ready and eager to do it but i was shitting myself i had grown into a nice friendly routine with people i cared about and i did not want to leave it. Same goes with living at home, i unlike most people like my family, i talk with them, i eat with them, their there if i need them. At Sara's birthday i befriended her friends, and i have to say they are the nicest bunch of guys you could imagine. This weekend i spent it with them at Christian's house (Sara's boyfriends) his mum is beyond cool, like we can do what ever we want up until what ever hour we want and she doesn't care the slightest.
I spent three consecutive days there. I worked Saturday, i went there and stayed the night. I came home in the morning, showered, got ready for work, went to work, came home, showered went back and crashed again, then came home Monday afternoon. People these days seem to always want to go out and do something that cost's money but that wasn't the case with them. Not everyone was drinking but we still had a fuck load of fun. Movies, quoting shit, horrible jokes before crashing and swapping stories. I'm spending new years with them, shall be pretty epic. I know I've complained that my friends don't hang out as often as i want them to. It's understandable we all have lives and it seems like we always have to plan ahead in advance to get a day we can do something. Though its nice i have some friends that just do random party nights. It kinda did feel like i had moved out that weekend. We ate a lot of junk food, made a lot of mess. We cleaned up, we went shopping, split the bill. At this point I'd like to say never use self-serve check outs. We were there for at least half a hour, no joke. The guy who worked at woollies were so pissed off, gave us the 'four guys can't work the machine' stare. Like seriously that thing is sooo pressure sensitive it's not funny. Though a group effort on the Monday breakfast was pretty cool. I came home cause dad threw a hissy fit about me not being home for days. Turned all the slight small things about the weekend into a big deal. Like me not getting enough sleep, dad was like 'this is why you should be at home, so no one can disturb you while your sleeping'. Like seriously i chose to sleep on the mattress on the floor cause i gave the spare room to my sister. Also one of the dog's bit me cause i accidentally stepped on him, stupid Pomeranian. Though when i came home i was once again beyond bored, i had nothing to do.
Side note, i talked with someone again today. Haven't talked with them till i tried to get into their pants. We had a discussion about that cherry night in their car. I've come to realise my sex life is ruined. Like i know I'm std free again but once you catch something your mind is always there, always thinking 'when was the last time this person got tested'. I got told the only reason i got lucky that night was because i was so persistent. We talked and I've come to realise that i now make up reasons not to sleep with someone, purely cause I'm afraid I'll catch something, bye bye raging hormones, hello state of fear.
Testicles: male reproductive organs located in the scrotum that produce sperm and the male hormone, testosterone www.gyneconline.net/eng/abc.htm
Pride: the feeling of self-respect and personal worth wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
Manhood: the state of being a man; manly qualities wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl.webwn
My pet peeve as of late is clingy, lonely pathetic guys. I am sick about guys that have been in relationships for like two weeks and being with the one. Then when something horrible happens they go into a spiral of depression and can't believe how their heart has been torn out and their soul shredded. I'm sick of hearing about guys cyber stalking their girlfriends, like seriously. I am sick about hearing guys cry cause a girl doesn't like them or she did this and that with another man. Like seriously you are a fucking tool if you expect monogamy from someone you haven't even been dating for at least 6 months. Humans fuck up, shit happens, we have urges, be thankful it's just a sexual urge and not a I'm going to stab you while you sleep urge. My facebook news feed was spammed today by two individuals posting about how their girlfriend now hates them, they were posted lyrics from love songs and seeking sympathy because their life no longer had meaning. Like seriously, grow a god damn pair of testicles, rediscover some self-respect and man the fuck up.
Though on a happier note, I've changed a bit. We all have the notion of moving out and living on our own. For a while i thought i wouldn't be able to do it. I know i won't be doing it for a while because of uni the fact is simple, I'm logically i unfortunately have a working brain and know that i can't afford it at this age. Though there was always something else about moving out. It was the fear thing, a lack of confidence. Like graduating high school everyone seemed ready and eager to do it but i was shitting myself i had grown into a nice friendly routine with people i cared about and i did not want to leave it. Same goes with living at home, i unlike most people like my family, i talk with them, i eat with them, their there if i need them. At Sara's birthday i befriended her friends, and i have to say they are the nicest bunch of guys you could imagine. This weekend i spent it with them at Christian's house (Sara's boyfriends) his mum is beyond cool, like we can do what ever we want up until what ever hour we want and she doesn't care the slightest.
I spent three consecutive days there. I worked Saturday, i went there and stayed the night. I came home in the morning, showered, got ready for work, went to work, came home, showered went back and crashed again, then came home Monday afternoon. People these days seem to always want to go out and do something that cost's money but that wasn't the case with them. Not everyone was drinking but we still had a fuck load of fun. Movies, quoting shit, horrible jokes before crashing and swapping stories. I'm spending new years with them, shall be pretty epic. I know I've complained that my friends don't hang out as often as i want them to. It's understandable we all have lives and it seems like we always have to plan ahead in advance to get a day we can do something. Though its nice i have some friends that just do random party nights. It kinda did feel like i had moved out that weekend. We ate a lot of junk food, made a lot of mess. We cleaned up, we went shopping, split the bill. At this point I'd like to say never use self-serve check outs. We were there for at least half a hour, no joke. The guy who worked at woollies were so pissed off, gave us the 'four guys can't work the machine' stare. Like seriously that thing is sooo pressure sensitive it's not funny. Though a group effort on the Monday breakfast was pretty cool. I came home cause dad threw a hissy fit about me not being home for days. Turned all the slight small things about the weekend into a big deal. Like me not getting enough sleep, dad was like 'this is why you should be at home, so no one can disturb you while your sleeping'. Like seriously i chose to sleep on the mattress on the floor cause i gave the spare room to my sister. Also one of the dog's bit me cause i accidentally stepped on him, stupid Pomeranian. Though when i came home i was once again beyond bored, i had nothing to do.
Side note, i talked with someone again today. Haven't talked with them till i tried to get into their pants. We had a discussion about that cherry night in their car. I've come to realise my sex life is ruined. Like i know I'm std free again but once you catch something your mind is always there, always thinking 'when was the last time this person got tested'. I got told the only reason i got lucky that night was because i was so persistent. We talked and I've come to realise that i now make up reasons not to sleep with someone, purely cause I'm afraid I'll catch something, bye bye raging hormones, hello state of fear.
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