Distrait

So I'm starting to become a little more self-sufficient. I pay for my go card, i pay for my food. I bought my plane tickets to South Australia, I've saved enough spending money, I've got enough for my uni text books and I've got enough for my Playstation 3.

Work on Thursday was, well something. I laughed a lot, store room conversation about blow jobs made me cry from laughter. Though post closing a philosophical conversation was rough. It was about the topic i hate most, the realisations i never want to face, and i started to shake somewhat. It reminded me of my grade 12 English speech, the topic i couldn't talk about, cause i freaked out, i felt judged and i sped through though I'm pretty sure few people have forgotten it, much to my dismay. I dislike getting close to people to fast but i like the people i work with. It's just nothing something i really enjoy talking about nor do i intend on talking about again.

You know that facebook group that's titled something along the lines of 'Once i learn something about someone, i can't look at them the say way'? We'll it's true. It's not always a bad thing but it's like i wish i didn't hear this, i don't want to know about this. Now when i say anything around you i feel like utter shit. It's not about anyone that's reading this blog. I know that much for sure. I just wish there was a process for un-learning.

I leave for South Australia on Thursday, shall be exciting, though if only i could find my PSP.