increased heart rate;
sweaty palms;
nausea;
worry ;
worry ;
worry;
the life of a uni student
fml indefinitely.

Before the worst

The sky is falling on my little world.
& it worries me.

Shake it

This year is coming to a close.
Today marks the end of uni tuts and lecs.
It honestly couldn't have come soon enough.

I'm somewhat crushed.
I found out that i failed two pieces of assessment.
Different subjects, 10% each but still.
I know i deserve it i didn't give uni enough priority.
I refuse to let this soul sucking abyss crush my social life.

I hit DFO yesterday. Spent half of my savings account.
FML, Lauren your a bad influence but a good assistant.
Our 2 hour ride home and maccas was priceless, truly wonderful.

Clubbing this weekend with Danni, Lesbo and various other folk.
I'm stoked about getting 'manda her birthday card, i already know which one.

I'm back online, its nice to be back, people actually genuinely seemed to have missed me. Also somethings amiss at uni, people are acting differently, but i have no idea why, I'm trying to not let it get to me. I'm glad my blogs hit people other countries, its a nice feeling.

Looking forward to the holiday, to the sleep.
Going to SA for a bit to see Gabi and meet her friends.
Kinda nervous. Oh and will have my soundwave tick soon.

So this is it

I'll probably never see her again.
I only found out she was leaving today.
I didn't know what to say;
The goodbye was horrible, I'm sorry.

So this is it.
Birthday tonight.
Alcohol and a fake smile.
Pretend everything's alright;
So no one asks you whats wrong.
It's less painful this way, much less painful.
=)

Champ

I have a lot on my plate.
Dejan don't like this. Dejan does not like this one bit.
There was a time where i liked deep meaningful questions.
Fuck that shit these days.

People fail at life, it's obvious.
Our prime minister is a twit.
Though I've come to find many people have his standard of communication.
Or lack-there off. Especially though with a uni-grade education.

I still don't know how to comprehend what mother told me today.
I don't want to do my legal foundation exam.
I don't feel like doing anything, nothing excites me.
And i literally, honestly and testosteroneally mean it.

What do you do when you believe in nothing,
And your best isn't good enough.
(i also today beat the pokemon league)
(boo-yah)

Superman

I still feel like shit.

Though i have no time for that.

The world calls.

*rips of overcoat in a masculine manor*

Today was been overwhelming.

Not physically but emotional and psychologically.

I had a friend call me in tears.
I instantaneously stopped thinking about 'them'.
And turned to the issue at hand.

I come home, mums on the phone panicking.
Sladjana's looks shell shocked.

What's wrong i wonder?
I won't go into detail.

Though now my family is in crisis mode.

Domestic Violence

Affair's
Divorce
(not my folks, extended family)

Also a friend from uni is also having trouble with his love life.

Women are bitches.

In 3.5 hours.
I have to somehow forget about all this.

To go to training.
Oh how i yearn to be criticized.

My gradings in 10 days?
I am no where near ready.
Oh god, i hate October.

If the clouds don't clear

Then well rise above it,

well rise above it

Heavens gate is so near

Come walk with me through

Just like we use to,

just like we use to

Lets take it back

Before it all went wrong

Before the worst - The Script

Just Peachy II

OK, so I'm sorry i chased after something.
I've learnt my place. I wont pursue happiness.
A wonderful night of self-loathing planned.
It seems hard for people to comfort.
A few basic sentences, non longer than 10 words.
Was it always like this in high school?
I talk to my sister, something goes down.
It's like a community event, everyone must get in.
For those that did say something, thanks.
For those that didn't, thanks.
I spend too much time at uni.
I guess that's where my place is.
I get told there's a reason to all this.
I find it harder and harder to see.
I give up, you win the war.
God/Karma/Who ever you are.
You win. (y)