Another year, another middle class white guy

Resolute: firm in purpose or belief, characterized by firmness and determination wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

There was another word i wanted to define, 'faith' but i couldn't find a definition i liked. New years eve was the best. I'm sad to say i couldn't have spent it with everyone i wanted to. I had 6 invitations for new years eve celebrations, four came the night beforehand. I was torn between Mr Popular and Mr Last Minute. Though i did the logical thing and went with my first invite, sad to say i wasn't able to spend it with my family, my extended family or people i went to school with, i still had a awesome time. I met a lot of new people, i love drunks; there is no such thing as an angry drunk. There's happy and horny. Granted i did see people have sex just about 2m away from me, was amusing. I made my new years resolution but whether I'm going to stick to it is a different story. I would like to think i am going but i don't know.

Three blogs have been punished on my stream update, and non of them are a cheery blog. I don't get it. Why are you already doubting the year before it has even begun? 2009 was a year we all won't forget. It was our first year out of high school, we faced the world and got knocked down a few times, some more than others. If you don't change your mindset, things unfortunately will never change. My life is going to remain relatively the same for a while, I'm going to be in university full time for at least another 5 years. It's not the most exciting thought to wake up too. And when it comes to the end, I'll be afraid to leave my routine just like i was with high school. I see people with potential within my life and are letting it just go to waste. I know that I'm going to see people and friends who by the time our 10 year anniversary comes around will be still working the same job they are now, because they lack the resolve to move forward onto better things. I know it's going to be hard to talk my sister into going to university instead of tafe.

On the other hand, I'm glad to have friends that are going all out. I talked with Ben yesterday he came into work. He just graduated high school last year, he got a OP8, he's decided on what he wants to do this year, hes got his job, he's planning on moving out. Like i wish i had the capability to do all that but i don't, it's not the person i am.

Though we're but four days into the new year and I've already noticed changes. I've become some what more confident in who i am. When at parties i always limit what i say, observe and psychoanalyse people in order to figure out what to say. Though i haven't done that as of late, I'm doing my do first, think later approach and it's working just fine. I'm doing things that needed to be done long ago because I'm tired of being behind and want to get in front. I'm being spontaneous, last night i brought tickets to Cobra Starship+Owl City. To be honest I'm going more for Owl City but hey, a means to an end. Got a few people together. I'm slowly, surely but very slowly planning to catch up with most friends, i might not have asked you yet, but the plans are set in motion.


I'm going to complain less. Not about other people, but about myself. Last year i learnt about a very close friend, who reads this blog who told me something she held dear to herself. She was never one to complain or seek sympathy. She just taught me a valuable lesson while i was crying and having a panic attack. She taught me that no matter how bad you think you have it, there is someone worse off than you. We all know this but chose to ignore it because we don't personally know any political prisoners, starving children or people who's lives have been ravaged by disease.

I recently uploaded 88 photos taken at various moments in 2009. Not everyone that was apart of my life was in those photo's but still i smiled when i went over them. And i am sure i was not the only one who recalled memories and adventures. Even high school ones about my old couch. I look forward to taking more photos, more adventures and more friends.

I know most people will ignore this blog, and still maintain their lives, regardless how miserable it may be, because after all we're just a bunch of kids drunk on our own circumstances.