Longest day in existence

That one day where nothing seems to be going right and it's just dragging on forever. Yeah one of those days. Blogspot you have defiantly been a roller coaster. For the first time in nearly two years i had thought about cancelling you.

Blogspot was a median, my scapegoat when something was on my mind but i didn't want to trouble other people with. A few close friends and a lot of randoms in Asia and east Europe would read. Today was an utter fuck up. A dear friend read a blog, realised i had mentioned her and went off at me. In a sense, i acknowledge that i had fucked up but that blog was just something i needed to vent about because i didn't want to bitch to people about it. In a sense I'm glad i blogged about it because i had mistake facts and we'll discussing it would've been a bigger disaster then the blog itself. Though I've known this person since grade 9 so i have no doubt our friendship will overcome this.

Though I've spent the day nauseated, it's that feeling where you know this is a situation where you best let things work themselves out but you're too involved and feel obligated to resolve it right away. As much of an emotional wreck i was today i did my best not to do anything.

I'm still debating what to do with blogspot. Lauren said i should just invest in a diary cause there is a lesser chance of offending people. Privatisation has also been recommended. I was intending on deleting blogspot today because i thought it would make the situation go away. Though i went through my blogs to find a certain picture i posted and found myself sifting through early 2009 and prior. I became even more emotional. I found notes from the day i made my first day of uni friends, my aspirations in the new year, where i met a certain group of friends. I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to destroy it, because as much as i may hate it, this is a part of me, this blog embodies what i have accomplished over the past two years.

Today i have started a new journey. Tumblr. From the 30 people following this blog i would probably only give the link to about 7 of you just because i think you get why i blog. Tumblr is the same, i don't think I'll ever be as personal as i am in this, though i think the pictures and the videos help inspire me, or make me laugh. I really enjoy the latest one i posted, the harry potter-inception cross over, it really did brighten up my day.

I've come to realise not naming someone still offends them. I think the biggest shock is when someone reads your blogs and you have no idea they are. I guess I'll attempt to stress the fact that these are my thoughts, not whinges.

It's now 12:51. I have to give a speech in about 18 hours to my tute group, better suck it up and get started. If you have tumblr let me know and I'll probably add you.
P.s I'm sorry, you know who you are.