So this is going to be a long one; so grab your self some popcorn or something. My 7 and a bit day stay in Mount Barker was wonderful. At first i was a bit hesitant because i would be staying in a house where i only knew one person. But the Lawson family was beyond nice. The temperature was awesome. It wasn't ice cold even though it hit the 30ths but it's when you don't have to deal with Queensland's humidity it just becomes so perfect. There's nothing more wonderful then sleeping with a doona. Everyones houses were huge in South Australia, non of the roads were straight, they all had these beautifully landscaped backyards. South Australia had like minimum traffic lights which freaked me out a little, i don't think i could drive in those conditions. Also everyone was a bit more green there, South Australia has implemented a plastic bag tax, you wouldn't believe how many people i saw with those green bags.
We went to the Garden of Unhealthy delight which was like the prelude to the fringe festival. I wish i could've planned my stay a bit better that way i would've gotten to see Tom Gleeson and Hannah Gadsby. I could've also hit the South Australian Soundwave but oh well. I met a lot of people, made a few friends, had the most horrid experience on public transport, went clubbing in Adelaide and rode on bumper cars. I was sad to go. Though i am most deffently going back.
Soundwave.
Another thing i didn't initially want to go to. I was to tired and wasn't expecting the day to turn out as well as i wanted. I saw about 10 bands. I'll never go into another Paramore mosh pit, i couldn't even focus on the performance because of the amount of drug infused bogans, overzealous fat chicks and gay emo kids fighting around me. All Time Low was just amazing, moshed like a 14 year old girl on steroids, up beat lyrics and song's that i just sing a home. Though You me at six took the cake. They've been my favourite band for a while now and i was kinda getting pissed off that no one knew them. Randoms kept on asking me who i was there to see and they were like oh, i was like so what if I'm not here for fucking Trivium. Most pit was kinda eh, too many fuckers who didn't even know the lyrics around me, i really wanted to get up to the front. Though when Save it for the Bedroom came on, everyone went crazy and that was most likely the best song i heard there all day. I got to meet them, i waited in line for like a hour and ended up getting the second last ticket. They signed my Soundwave ticket and that's now in my room awaiting lamination. I think the most exciting part of the day was having a conversation with Max and his really really British accent. I also discovered a new song that wasn't in the albums i downloaded and it's pretty fucking amazing.
"This is my story"
Monday, February 22, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
The scene is dead
I think it's time for a Dejan update.
Saturday: Epic, pure win.
Sister and four friends just talking, laughing, throwing dildos at each other. A fun time was had by all. Conversations lasted until 3. Went through Christen's porno collection, a lot of magazines. I choked and cried after finding a page of middle-aged obese hairy women. Everyone laughed, no one helped. Condom balloon animals. Walked in on things and giggled. Played Tekken, a lot of Tekken. Me and Christen are both stubborn and went rematch after rematch.
Sunday-Monday: Alright.
Things confused me, certain relationships confuse me. I had the most horrid night. I didn't sleep well the night before. Dexter (the dog) would not stop sleeping on my face. I was like fuck off. Changed sleeping locations a few times the son of a bitch still went after me. I broke the curtain handle by accident so i was like /oh fuck. So had to repair that in the morning. I knew at that instant regardless that i was 3 am that i wasn't going to have a good day. I did he best i could to stay positive but it was hard. Teppenyaki people fucked up my order, didn't cook the chicken properly. Dad was pissed when he got home from work, i don't know whether it was because he had a shit day at work or because he was pissed i didn't come home on the weekend. Either way it didn't impress me. Training didn't go much better. Training day changed to Wednesday. I set up my uni time table to be able to attend training. This meant putting most of my class's on Wednesday. I have like a hour break from 9-5. Then they expect me to come home straight away get changed and go. Like i can do it, time really isn't a issue but I'm just going to get tired and i won't feel like it and I'll want to quit. Grading still to be confirmed but it appears that it'll be the 13 of march. I am so not ready. I know it's hard to fail a grading at this level but still i hate the whole grading process and being judged.
Friends: Surprised, pleasantly.
So i have to go back to the clinic for a follow up examination and to get my Hep B vaccination cause i apparently missed out on it in school. The needles i can deal with it. It's just the location that i don't like. It's supposed to be a open place for everyone to come to. But the white corridors and judgemental staff scare the fuck out of me. I've been putting it off cause I've been ashamed to ask most friends to take me and those i did can't. Though today a friend from uni offered to go with me, it caught me off guard. I don't know this just isn't the kind of thing i would ask of a male friend, just the whole ego thing; it's just really shameful but I'm glad about my choice in friends. Also would like to thank a very special lady who agreed on dropping me off at the air port, even though she judged me when i offered to put out for her. You really are a lesbian, but i still heart you.
Cobra Starship: :Q_____
Pretty sexy. I realised I'm going to their concert in march and i haven't downloaded all their albums. The early stuff is like eh. The Hot Mess album is pretty epic. I can't wait to hear a few songs come march. And Owl City too =D
Soundwave: Soon!
I don't know what to expect. Like I'll go weak in the knees at a few bands and spend a fuck load on merchandise but oh well. You me at Six ! You me at Six ! You me at Six! You me at Six!
Stocktake: Wednesday.
I know it's not generally a pleasant experience but i look forward to it. It'll just be 4 hours of laughs, granted we'll have to do work but oh well.
South Australia: This week.
$415 return. 8 Days of fun. Valentines day will be horribly awkward as i will be third wheeling. Though i hope i still have fun. I need to buy new clothes and find my god damn PlayStation portable.
Karli Fletcher:
I've read that Edward will be changing your password so i don't know if you'll be getting wall posts or how that whole thing is going to work out. Regardless I would very much like to hang out with you when i get back from South Australia (21/02/2010) and get my pillow back; have you named it yet? Also i refuse to allow Uni to steal you this year.
University: Closing in.
Only like two weeks away, and life will once again change when it starts up. I can't say that I'm looking forward to it, it really just kinda scares me.
Saturday: Epic, pure win.
Sister and four friends just talking, laughing, throwing dildos at each other. A fun time was had by all. Conversations lasted until 3. Went through Christen's porno collection, a lot of magazines. I choked and cried after finding a page of middle-aged obese hairy women. Everyone laughed, no one helped. Condom balloon animals. Walked in on things and giggled. Played Tekken, a lot of Tekken. Me and Christen are both stubborn and went rematch after rematch.
Sunday-Monday: Alright.
Things confused me, certain relationships confuse me. I had the most horrid night. I didn't sleep well the night before. Dexter (the dog) would not stop sleeping on my face. I was like fuck off. Changed sleeping locations a few times the son of a bitch still went after me. I broke the curtain handle by accident so i was like /oh fuck. So had to repair that in the morning. I knew at that instant regardless that i was 3 am that i wasn't going to have a good day. I did he best i could to stay positive but it was hard. Teppenyaki people fucked up my order, didn't cook the chicken properly. Dad was pissed when he got home from work, i don't know whether it was because he had a shit day at work or because he was pissed i didn't come home on the weekend. Either way it didn't impress me. Training didn't go much better. Training day changed to Wednesday. I set up my uni time table to be able to attend training. This meant putting most of my class's on Wednesday. I have like a hour break from 9-5. Then they expect me to come home straight away get changed and go. Like i can do it, time really isn't a issue but I'm just going to get tired and i won't feel like it and I'll want to quit. Grading still to be confirmed but it appears that it'll be the 13 of march. I am so not ready. I know it's hard to fail a grading at this level but still i hate the whole grading process and being judged.
Friends: Surprised, pleasantly.
So i have to go back to the clinic for a follow up examination and to get my Hep B vaccination cause i apparently missed out on it in school. The needles i can deal with it. It's just the location that i don't like. It's supposed to be a open place for everyone to come to. But the white corridors and judgemental staff scare the fuck out of me. I've been putting it off cause I've been ashamed to ask most friends to take me and those i did can't. Though today a friend from uni offered to go with me, it caught me off guard. I don't know this just isn't the kind of thing i would ask of a male friend, just the whole ego thing; it's just really shameful but I'm glad about my choice in friends. Also would like to thank a very special lady who agreed on dropping me off at the air port, even though she judged me when i offered to put out for her. You really are a lesbian, but i still heart you.
Cobra Starship: :Q_____
Pretty sexy. I realised I'm going to their concert in march and i haven't downloaded all their albums. The early stuff is like eh. The Hot Mess album is pretty epic. I can't wait to hear a few songs come march. And Owl City too =D
Soundwave: Soon!
I don't know what to expect. Like I'll go weak in the knees at a few bands and spend a fuck load on merchandise but oh well. You me at Six ! You me at Six ! You me at Six! You me at Six!
Stocktake: Wednesday.
I know it's not generally a pleasant experience but i look forward to it. It'll just be 4 hours of laughs, granted we'll have to do work but oh well.
South Australia: This week.
$415 return. 8 Days of fun. Valentines day will be horribly awkward as i will be third wheeling. Though i hope i still have fun. I need to buy new clothes and find my god damn PlayStation portable.
Karli Fletcher:
I've read that Edward will be changing your password so i don't know if you'll be getting wall posts or how that whole thing is going to work out. Regardless I would very much like to hang out with you when i get back from South Australia (21/02/2010) and get my pillow back; have you named it yet? Also i refuse to allow Uni to steal you this year.
University: Closing in.
Only like two weeks away, and life will once again change when it starts up. I can't say that I'm looking forward to it, it really just kinda scares me.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Distrait
So I'm starting to become a little more self-sufficient. I pay for my go card, i pay for my food. I bought my plane tickets to South Australia, I've saved enough spending money, I've got enough for my uni text books and I've got enough for my Playstation 3.
Work on Thursday was, well something. I laughed a lot, store room conversation about blow jobs made me cry from laughter. Though post closing a philosophical conversation was rough. It was about the topic i hate most, the realisations i never want to face, and i started to shake somewhat. It reminded me of my grade 12 English speech, the topic i couldn't talk about, cause i freaked out, i felt judged and i sped through though I'm pretty sure few people have forgotten it, much to my dismay. I dislike getting close to people to fast but i like the people i work with. It's just nothing something i really enjoy talking about nor do i intend on talking about again.
You know that facebook group that's titled something along the lines of 'Once i learn something about someone, i can't look at them the say way'? We'll it's true. It's not always a bad thing but it's like i wish i didn't hear this, i don't want to know about this. Now when i say anything around you i feel like utter shit. It's not about anyone that's reading this blog. I know that much for sure. I just wish there was a process for un-learning.
I leave for South Australia on Thursday, shall be exciting, though if only i could find my PSP.
Work on Thursday was, well something. I laughed a lot, store room conversation about blow jobs made me cry from laughter. Though post closing a philosophical conversation was rough. It was about the topic i hate most, the realisations i never want to face, and i started to shake somewhat. It reminded me of my grade 12 English speech, the topic i couldn't talk about, cause i freaked out, i felt judged and i sped through though I'm pretty sure few people have forgotten it, much to my dismay. I dislike getting close to people to fast but i like the people i work with. It's just nothing something i really enjoy talking about nor do i intend on talking about again.
You know that facebook group that's titled something along the lines of 'Once i learn something about someone, i can't look at them the say way'? We'll it's true. It's not always a bad thing but it's like i wish i didn't hear this, i don't want to know about this. Now when i say anything around you i feel like utter shit. It's not about anyone that's reading this blog. I know that much for sure. I just wish there was a process for un-learning.
I leave for South Australia on Thursday, shall be exciting, though if only i could find my PSP.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Behind closed doors
So today's my first day off in a while. Oh how depressing it was. I got my first taste of working full-time. It wasn't the most enjoyable thing in the world but when you have a body clock and you wake up early to a day of nothing it's even less exciting. I attempted to stay in bed as long as possible, waking up twice thinking 'oh fuck, I'm late for work'. I watched Red Cliff and ate.
For the next month and a half I'll be in debt. I'm well aware of it. I know that I'll be going into it. I wish i didn't have to, but oh well. I'll be leaving for South Australia on the 11th and coming back on the 19th. It's not going to be the most relaxing plane trip. I leave the day after stock take at work and come back the day before Soundwave. Majority of my money will be going towards my PS3 fund, and I'll also be paying for my ticket to South Aus. On the side i also have to think about holiday spending money and soundwave merchandise and maybe I'll have to pay a few ladies to get naked and cause a distraction so i can get backstage. Uni also starts up at the end of February. I think my book list is like $300. GTFO Qut. The only good thing about repeating a subject is not having to purchase material for it. It's going to a rough change. I went from working a fair bit and spending ever weekend in Carindale with friends to reading, reading and well you guessed it; more reading. Farewell Deej, hello Number: 07181647.
I need to change who i am. Well certain aspects about me. I know who i want to be but i just lack the motivation to do it. I'm sick of regrets, right now the things i regret are having certain people as friends and the most would be probably sleeping with certain people. I'm sick of you seeing you people around, i roll my eyes and gag at the notion we used to stand together in a close proximity. never again.
Also i want to know if there is a scientific reason for just not liking someone from the first moment you meet them? Like i don't hate you; i just hate everything about you and everything you do.
Social groups are changing. Enemies becoming friends, friends becoming enemies. I don't know what to expect when uni starts. The saddest notion is that i won't see my friends from high school aside from birthday parties. I wish we all just had the motivation to see each other a little more. I know we can survive without each other. Those in relationships need no one, those in new friendships attempt to make time for each other, i know it's sad, but i miss quite a few of you.
Nerdy Side Note: I've put together a pile of games I'm gonna trade in for credit on my PS3. It's so sad that I'm attached to so many of them. Like Psychic Force which i played when i was like 7? I'm never gonna play it again but it was a pretty awesome game even if it had only eight characters. I know that I'm materialistically clingy, oh well.
For the next month and a half I'll be in debt. I'm well aware of it. I know that I'll be going into it. I wish i didn't have to, but oh well. I'll be leaving for South Australia on the 11th and coming back on the 19th. It's not going to be the most relaxing plane trip. I leave the day after stock take at work and come back the day before Soundwave. Majority of my money will be going towards my PS3 fund, and I'll also be paying for my ticket to South Aus. On the side i also have to think about holiday spending money and soundwave merchandise and maybe I'll have to pay a few ladies to get naked and cause a distraction so i can get backstage. Uni also starts up at the end of February. I think my book list is like $300. GTFO Qut. The only good thing about repeating a subject is not having to purchase material for it. It's going to a rough change. I went from working a fair bit and spending ever weekend in Carindale with friends to reading, reading and well you guessed it; more reading. Farewell Deej, hello Number: 07181647.
I need to change who i am. Well certain aspects about me. I know who i want to be but i just lack the motivation to do it. I'm sick of regrets, right now the things i regret are having certain people as friends and the most would be probably sleeping with certain people. I'm sick of you seeing you people around, i roll my eyes and gag at the notion we used to stand together in a close proximity. never again.
Also i want to know if there is a scientific reason for just not liking someone from the first moment you meet them? Like i don't hate you; i just hate everything about you and everything you do.
Social groups are changing. Enemies becoming friends, friends becoming enemies. I don't know what to expect when uni starts. The saddest notion is that i won't see my friends from high school aside from birthday parties. I wish we all just had the motivation to see each other a little more. I know we can survive without each other. Those in relationships need no one, those in new friendships attempt to make time for each other, i know it's sad, but i miss quite a few of you.
Nerdy Side Note: I've put together a pile of games I'm gonna trade in for credit on my PS3. It's so sad that I'm attached to so many of them. Like Psychic Force which i played when i was like 7? I'm never gonna play it again but it was a pretty awesome game even if it had only eight characters. I know that I'm materialistically clingy, oh well.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Evince
I'm sick and tired, of being sick and tired. I'm no better than those i complain about. Divorced families, starvation, chronic illness and i complain about not getting enough sleep or seeing my friends as much as i want. I'm no better then those slag's that complain about their failing relationships, or the difficulty of waxing someone else's genitalia.
Work's great most of the time, especially Saturday night. We closed the store early, Natalie stayed back and we reorganised. Oh we laughed so much. I laughed so hard when i found out Michael knew of Azerbaijan (MHS/ECN reference) if that isn't a sign that i found the right job i don't know what is. The only thing i don't have the confidence to do by myself is trades really, i dunno i just don't like quoting people a price in case I'm wrong. Oh well I'll get over it eventually.
I've been informed by friends that two people have 'crushes' on me. Haha I fear i am rebound man. Pretty sure one only wants to fuck me to spite someone else and the other one will only serve to mess everything up. Aside from the fact that women can get incredibly spiteful i don't want a relationship. I don't feel the urge to have deep and meaningful conversations with either of them, i don't see any merit in either of them knowing my deepest thoughts or what goes on in my mind after hours. I know the kind of relationship i want and i won't get it from either of them.
I hate hate hate hate high school kids. Especially illiterate loudmouth soon to drain our economy high school kids from Woodridge. That fuckwit in a mere hour justified domestic violence and child labour. Oh how many times i pondered throwing her under the train.
Coast was alright, i wasn't in the mood for it. I just wanted to sleep but oh well. Sunburn. I think I found the new hobby; I'll be getting the required equipment for it tomorrow probably. I need to get over this tired thing. I don't think things through when i say them, more so than usual. The only thing I'm afraid is saying something I'll regret.
Work's great most of the time, especially Saturday night. We closed the store early, Natalie stayed back and we reorganised. Oh we laughed so much. I laughed so hard when i found out Michael knew of Azerbaijan (MHS/ECN reference) if that isn't a sign that i found the right job i don't know what is. The only thing i don't have the confidence to do by myself is trades really, i dunno i just don't like quoting people a price in case I'm wrong. Oh well I'll get over it eventually.
I've been informed by friends that two people have 'crushes' on me. Haha I fear i am rebound man. Pretty sure one only wants to fuck me to spite someone else and the other one will only serve to mess everything up. Aside from the fact that women can get incredibly spiteful i don't want a relationship. I don't feel the urge to have deep and meaningful conversations with either of them, i don't see any merit in either of them knowing my deepest thoughts or what goes on in my mind after hours. I know the kind of relationship i want and i won't get it from either of them.
I hate hate hate hate high school kids. Especially illiterate loudmouth soon to drain our economy high school kids from Woodridge. That fuckwit in a mere hour justified domestic violence and child labour. Oh how many times i pondered throwing her under the train.
Coast was alright, i wasn't in the mood for it. I just wanted to sleep but oh well. Sunburn. I think I found the new hobby; I'll be getting the required equipment for it tomorrow probably. I need to get over this tired thing. I don't think things through when i say them, more so than usual. The only thing I'm afraid is saying something I'll regret.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Tired Little Nerd
People really need to get their priorities in order and fuck off. I've worked 6 days straight. I've had pretty much no sleep; after tomorrow i have another 6 days straight. I've picked up two shifts this week. I've had cunt's for customers. I hate planning. I'm not going to plan that little Park Regis party anymore. Someone else can fucking do it. Dejan is tired. I'm sick of planning. This trip to South Australia will be the last thing i plan before my birthday, though i am thinking of having a small party this year. Gonna cut the guest list in half.
Enough of this 'apathetic' mood. Sick and tired of being stressed and depressed. Refuse to go emo and sit in a ditch while my life achieves nothing. I will some how make time to see friends. I will work less. I will hit someone eventually.
Enough of this 'apathetic' mood. Sick and tired of being stressed and depressed. Refuse to go emo and sit in a ditch while my life achieves nothing. I will some how make time to see friends. I will work less. I will hit someone eventually.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Sad Little Nerd
University time table chosen. Wednesday 10.30 - 5 and Friday 10 - 4. I have a lecture on Thursday nights though i have a feeling I'll be covering a fair few shits so i don't count that as a certainty. This gives me a four day weekend so i have plenty of time to work. =)
As another chapter of life comes to a open, another must come to a close unfortunately. The new chapter is of course the second year of uni, though the chapter closing is defiantly something i valued more. Final Fantasy 11 was my first online game, it saw me almost fail grade 11, countless all nighters, i saw my sister doing all nighters on it, i made brand new friends, friends i even met up with in real life. With the realise of AION a lot of players from both FFonline and WoW have left servers to flock to the new game. Unfortunate to say the servers are dead and i am growing bored with the game. Gabi was the first close friend i've met and saw leave the game last year, i'll be seeing her in Feb when i go down to visit her. Haven't seen her since last year. Tim will be leaving the game when he's shipped back to America; gonna miss that dude, still have myspace i guess. I know its weird I'm sad but like i put two years of work into that game, made a fuck load of people, gonna be sad when i leave. I'm trying to hold out till the end of the year. Cause a bunch of us, Gabi and Tim included are going to start Final Fantasy 14 together. You know you're a nerd when you and a group of friends stay up all night in an attempt to slay a silly dragon.
When ever i have a relative from over seas talk to me I get scared. It's not that i don't want to talk to them. It's the fact that I'm so critical of my Serbian. I can't write in Serbian for shit. I'm going to buy a cam and mic so i can talk to them.
As another chapter of life comes to a open, another must come to a close unfortunately. The new chapter is of course the second year of uni, though the chapter closing is defiantly something i valued more. Final Fantasy 11 was my first online game, it saw me almost fail grade 11, countless all nighters, i saw my sister doing all nighters on it, i made brand new friends, friends i even met up with in real life. With the realise of AION a lot of players from both FFonline and WoW have left servers to flock to the new game. Unfortunate to say the servers are dead and i am growing bored with the game. Gabi was the first close friend i've met and saw leave the game last year, i'll be seeing her in Feb when i go down to visit her. Haven't seen her since last year. Tim will be leaving the game when he's shipped back to America; gonna miss that dude, still have myspace i guess. I know its weird I'm sad but like i put two years of work into that game, made a fuck load of people, gonna be sad when i leave. I'm trying to hold out till the end of the year. Cause a bunch of us, Gabi and Tim included are going to start Final Fantasy 14 together. You know you're a nerd when you and a group of friends stay up all night in an attempt to slay a silly dragon.
When ever i have a relative from over seas talk to me I get scared. It's not that i don't want to talk to them. It's the fact that I'm so critical of my Serbian. I can't write in Serbian for shit. I'm going to buy a cam and mic so i can talk to them.
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