I posted a blog not two hours ago.
But i deleted it.
I don't know to think.
I am angry and a lot of things.
I feel like i can say, "I wholeheartedly hate someone"
Not hating them as a person, but because i feel they took something.
Something metaphorical that i can't get back.
I could do so easily, i would anger a lot of people.
And i can not say that sentence without saying "Why do i care"
I hate ethics. My ethics class.
Its pointed out the flaw in my thinking.
But its just so hard to be the bigger man.
I just want to hit something, drink excessively, and run away.
Tonight i have said things that i have always morally opposed.
I could always find a reason to tell people to cheer up and can not for myself.
I sit here at 2 am fighting my own train of thoughts.
Oh what to do, deontology doesn't work, utilitarianism doesn't apply, all that's left is egoism.
This is such a well written blog Dejan, trust you to get emotional and still articulate your thoughts so well.
ReplyDeleteThis is part of the reason why i love you...this and your body.
Everything will sort itself out Dejan dont worry. Im all up for a good slapping if you need to release some anger ;)