shittiest day

today was a lot more melodramatic

in relation to the last blog

i came to the dinner

to be welcomed by clapping of hands

the if your happy and you know it version

what followers of this blog don't know is that

this has been a method to mock me because

someone thinks i might have the clap

cause some idiot bit me once when i got head

seriously;

so i made a scene.

i was fucking pissed off

and i knew it was coming

so i wasn't the favourite person there

i ignored you know who

after we hit southbank, a few of us

she asked for a truce i agreed

for the sake of jenny who was in the middle

those things said, still hurt

my efforts were in vein

i got texts, nasty childish texts
i admitted my faults, but she did not hers

and that fucking pissed me off

she wants to play the victim
she claims she apologised

she never did

i told her about me 'using people'

she denied it

so i was texting jenny at the same time

we both feel that it is our fault that the group is divided

i still think she didn't do anything

but what pisses me off is the person i blame

probably doesn't blame herself

so now i need to find other people to hang with

we're all in a tute Tuesday

what fun?

this is actually making me feel physically ill