Rough friday

Today started of well. I ran into him.

It's not that i wasn't happen to see him.
It was when i saw his reaction to me.
I felt sick to my stomach, like it was the first day of school.
The tension in the air was so strong you couldn't smell Maccas.
I couldn't make eye contact, and his girlfriend was awkward.
It wasn't my imagination unfortunately.

After a good movie, my mood was ruined a little.
That family outing was the icing.
swearing, threats, treachery, grief
I saw a grown man cry and it made me feel hollow.
I don't really want to grow up, i fear it.
When you expect the family to have your back;

& you find them the on with the knife.
I just don't know how you get over that.
Today was not a good day.
I don't want to go to sleep;

cause i know it's what I'm gonna be thinking about.

Your look of disdain;

His pleas of reassurance;

The threats of strangulation;

A lullaby of what to expect in the adult world.

Few positives;
Uni kids attempting to comfort via facebook,
The movie with Danni &
Emily's spider sense when it comes to Dejan's emotions.

Oh i got my Debit MasterCard today.
I come home;
Dad "DID YOU GET A CREDIT CARD"

Its a fucking debit MasterCard.
I told you i ordered one on Monday;

your wife told you when the add came on.
Maybe you should stop ignoring me.
seriously;