In response to Karli and Emelia.
I didn't mean it sarcastically. You know you two are two of my best friends. I meant it as a personal thing. Why is it that i can hold a conversation easier with someone i don't know all that well in comparison to someone i spent 5 years of high school with. At first i thought maybe it's cause they know me too well, but the fact is i rarely see you guys, so why can't we have a conversation like we used to.
I'm gonna go with the idea that it's because i flirt with people that i didn't go to school with. Whether it's serious not or not i do it to pass time. Are sexual innuendo's how to i maintain conversations?
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Gerascophobia
Oh this week has sucked ever so much.
First off all there all the bleeding.
The loss of dignity and ego.
Then i found my online account was hacked.
RMT's stole everything from ffxi.
Now i can't play for 2 weeks.
So SE can try and get my shit back.
The loss of dignity and ego.
Then i found my online account was hacked.
RMT's stole everything from ffxi.
Now i can't play for 2 weeks.
So SE can try and get my shit back.
Tomorrow's my sisters birthday.
My cousins being realised from prison on thursday.
The highlight of my day today is playing online checkers.
My cousins being realised from prison on thursday.
The highlight of my day today is playing online checkers.
I feel old.
I've restarted Pokemon Diamond.
In the pursuit of getting a Lickitung.
I don't know if i want to do Justice anymore.
Like i prefer it over law and stuff.
But if i was a decent job, like a intel officer.
I have to go work in another state.
& very much so live a lie.
I can't tell people what i do.
I can't see the people i see now.
My cousin does it for a living.
He visits Brisbane like for like 2 weeks a year.
Like i get he gets to travel and what not.
Though i don't want to live a lie.
It hurts but its not bleeding.
Why is it when i go onto msn.
Why is it when i go onto msn.
It's always people i didn't go to school that talk to me?
Like the only time i can carry on a conversation
Like the only time i can carry on a conversation
With one of my "Best Friends" is when i have a story to tell.
When happens when i turn 25.
& Stop doing the crazy shit i am now?
What will replace the frenulum stories?
What i wouldn't do for a Bellsprout.
When happens when i turn 25.
& Stop doing the crazy shit i am now?
What will replace the frenulum stories?
What i wouldn't do for a Bellsprout.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Never Say Never
So it's been a week.
A heart-clenching, nauseating, regrettable, irreversible week.
A lot of shit went down, though I'm not all that keen on reminiscing.
Though i feel obligated to mention a few things.
Dejan's view of the world from his beloved fence.
This one got to me, i have no idea why though.
I'm generally used to my parent's trying to run my laugh.
Dejan's view of the world from his beloved fence.
This one got to me, i have no idea why though.
I'm generally used to my parent's trying to run my laugh.
Careers, girls i date, what i do in my spare time.
It's routine, i do it so my sister doesn't get it.
Though never did i except it from my friends.
I blocked people out for a while after that.
Personally i gotta thank Gabi and her spider-sense.
Just before i published my blog. She called.
It kinda honestly meant the world to me.
She knew what i was going though.
Cause she went through it herself.
She doesn't get the whole 'Serbian Family' thing.
Though her advice just kinda needed.
I consulted a psychologist that night.
I talked with a mentor/role model from uni about it.
It's routine, i do it so my sister doesn't get it.
Though never did i except it from my friends.
I blocked people out for a while after that.
Personally i gotta thank Gabi and her spider-sense.
Just before i published my blog. She called.
It kinda honestly meant the world to me.
She knew what i was going though.
Cause she went through it herself.
She doesn't get the whole 'Serbian Family' thing.
Though her advice just kinda needed.
I consulted a psychologist that night.
I talked with a mentor/role model from uni about it.
& a few other people that had some idea what i was going through.
The most amusing repose suggested which made me laugh was;
The most amusing repose suggested which made me laugh was;
From the psychologist; Honestly, just tell all your friends to go fuck off.
He has a degree that I will consider it.
He was right non the less.
It's my life, they had no right to interfere.
It's my choice, it doesn't affect them.
He has a degree that I will consider it.
He was right non the less.
It's my life, they had no right to interfere.
It's my choice, it doesn't affect them.
As much as i would like to say the experience hasn't effected me.
It has, just a lack of faith in friends.
I'm trying to be open, though it fails.
People have not let it go.
Assignments are finally over.
I'm working on getting rested.
I had an awesome plan to go out last night.
Epic fail.
I'm trying to be open, though it fails.
People have not let it go.
Assignments are finally over.
I'm working on getting rested.
I had an awesome plan to go out last night.
Epic fail.
Though i would like to Amanda for offering her place.
Just made it highly amusing.
Realisations:
Crushes are not worth pursuing.
Questions:
Should i point out your flaws?
Just made it highly amusing.
Realisations:
Crushes are not worth pursuing.
Questions:
Should i point out your flaws?
Somethings we don't talk about.
Rather do without.
Just hold a smile.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
tribute
i'm sorry i forgot.
a few days ago.
three years ago.
a special kid was murdered.
rip.
m.a.s
forever young.
forever young.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
A good weekend ruined
Buckle Up and Arm Yourselves.
It's ranting time.
People are fucked up.
This weekend has been quite controversial.
Shit happened and i made the mistake of informing people.
Why do we a narcissistic need to confine people to a logo.
We must place people with a title, into a little box,
It's ranting time.
People are fucked up.
This weekend has been quite controversial.
Shit happened and i made the mistake of informing people.
Why do we a narcissistic need to confine people to a logo.
We must place people with a title, into a little box,
Where this title defines who they are, so our little world makes sense.
I do it.
You do it.
We all do it.
Some more than others.
I do it.
You do it.
We all do it.
Some more than others.
I raised 'hypothetical situations' to certain people.
Only to see their face alter.'
It is soo fucked up.
I don't mean in regards to stabbing someone in the back.
Just the irony of of claiming to be someone else.
Why do you think you know what's best for me.
Why must i fit into your little world.
Why must it actually mean something.
Why do you seek to change my label.
Don't think you don't have a label.
We all do, you aren't aware of it.
What do you subconsciously label your friends?
Why?
Whose your best friend?
Whose your ranga?
Whose your fat friend?
Whose your whore of a friend?
Whose your gay friend?
Whose the airhead out of the group?
See my point?
I am rarely honest with people.
It only happens when I'm in a great mood.
Which lately happens less and less.
I'm probably more honest with my one night stands than you.
Because they're not gonna judge me.
They just want to fuck.
I don't have to be a label in their little world.
I am 18.
Most of you are as well.
You do not know what is best for you.
How dare you assume you know whats best for me?
I find it harder and harder to call you friends.
It does not have to be anything unless i chose it to be.
Cause you know why?
I'm gonna ignore all your advice, opinions and demands.
I'm gonna take my sweet as time.
AND SIT ON MYGODDAMN FUCKING FENCE.
Accept it or fuck off,
Only to see their face alter.'
It is soo fucked up.
I don't mean in regards to stabbing someone in the back.
Just the irony of of claiming to be someone else.
Why do you think you know what's best for me.
Why must i fit into your little world.
Why must it actually mean something.
Why do you seek to change my label.
Don't think you don't have a label.
We all do, you aren't aware of it.
What do you subconsciously label your friends?
Why?
Whose your best friend?
Whose your ranga?
Whose your fat friend?
Whose your whore of a friend?
Whose your gay friend?
Whose the airhead out of the group?
See my point?
I am rarely honest with people.
It only happens when I'm in a great mood.
Which lately happens less and less.
I'm probably more honest with my one night stands than you.
Because they're not gonna judge me.
They just want to fuck.
I don't have to be a label in their little world.
I am 18.
Most of you are as well.
You do not know what is best for you.
How dare you assume you know whats best for me?
I find it harder and harder to call you friends.
It does not have to be anything unless i chose it to be.
Cause you know why?
I'm gonna ignore all your advice, opinions and demands.
I'm gonna take my sweet as time.
AND SIT ON MYGODDAMN FUCKING FENCE.
Accept it or fuck off,
Your truly,
Dejan Tomasovic.
The boy on the fence.
Dejan Tomasovic.
The boy on the fence.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Almost there
I have survived the bulk of my assessment.
I have one more piece then I'm done.
Aside from the end of semester exam.
Life's going pretty good.
I've come to the conclusion people don't change.
Unless they go into a relationship.
Which depends on who its with.
Also, people need to have more sex.
People bitch way too much.'
I've come to the conclusion people don't change.
Unless they go into a relationship.
Which depends on who its with.
Also, people need to have more sex.
People bitch way too much.'
About other people, about insignificant matters.
And it's always those who aren't getting any.
Seriously, bring back friends with benefits.
And it's always those who aren't getting any.
Seriously, bring back friends with benefits.
Today i caught up with Joe.
Even though we go to uni together.
We haven't talked in ages.
Even though we go to uni together.
We haven't talked in ages.
I also ran into Lisa.
For those remember we were partners in the School Musical.
I really don't want to do my memorandum.
For those remember we were partners in the School Musical.
I really don't want to do my memorandum.
I wagged all lectures this week.
Skipped a tutorial, cause my tutor is a cow.
Skipped a tutorial, cause my tutor is a cow.
That i would love to strangle.
I also want a wii.
Someone buy me one!
Someone buy me one!
Monday, September 14, 2009
Forever Young
Em's 18, fun, well needed.
Trivial Pursuit, quite amusing.
Trivial pursuit without pants, more amusing.
Even if i was the only one who depantsed.
Today was weird, i was gonna complain about you all.
For your lack of blogs, and it seems like you all wrote one today.
We'll 80% anyway.
I hate legal foundations.
I hate uni.
This semester hasn't gone to plan.
Oh well soon it'll be over.
Today was rough.
Like the biggest understatement.
I've decided to write cause i need a break.
Sick of choking back tears.
Libby, a real man can admit it.
Though i won't cry tonight.
September.
Holds quite a few memories.
One not so pleasant that i recall ever since hearing it on the news.
The death of someone, our age.
Nonsensical mindless violent killing.
The anniversary of his death creeps ever so much closer.
I have still yet to figure out if i knew this kid.
Though in the past 3 year's he's given me quite a lot.
He's a huge influence on my ego;
Trivial Pursuit, quite amusing.
Trivial pursuit without pants, more amusing.
Even if i was the only one who depantsed.
Today was weird, i was gonna complain about you all.
For your lack of blogs, and it seems like you all wrote one today.
We'll 80% anyway.
I hate legal foundations.
I hate uni.
This semester hasn't gone to plan.
Oh well soon it'll be over.
Today was rough.
Like the biggest understatement.
I've decided to write cause i need a break.
Sick of choking back tears.
Libby, a real man can admit it.
Though i won't cry tonight.
September.
Holds quite a few memories.
One not so pleasant that i recall ever since hearing it on the news.
The death of someone, our age.
Nonsensical mindless violent killing.
The anniversary of his death creeps ever so much closer.
I have still yet to figure out if i knew this kid.
Though in the past 3 year's he's given me quite a lot.
He's a huge influence on my ego;
He's the general driving force my determination for continuing.
The reason i don't give up like others.
I still stride to be like him.
A memorable hero.
Who i hold in the up most regard.
Forever young,
I want to be forever young,
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever, forever
The reason i don't give up like others.
I still stride to be like him.
A memorable hero.
Who i hold in the up most regard.
Forever young,
I want to be forever young,
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever, forever
Friday, September 11, 2009
Let it come to an end
A decent blog is quite overdue.
Last semester i set out goals and objectives.
To be a better person,
Last semester i set out goals and objectives.
To be a better person,
epic fail.
I consistently wag lectures.
Never do my homework.
Leave assignments to the last minute.
Bullshit excessively.
Uni assessment is really just a utopia of lies.
I have yet to catch up with friends.
I just want this semester to come to a end.
I'm sick facades and false friendships.
I'm sick of the bitching.
I'm sick of the lack of sleep.
I'm sick of being unprepared.
I'm sick of thinking about you.
I need to get you out of my system.
One way or another.
Stalker's are weird and worry me.
I'm tired of always wanting more.
I'm sick of being you're dirty little secret.
I'm sick of people that wonder why i wont fuck them,
I consistently wag lectures.
Never do my homework.
Leave assignments to the last minute.
Bullshit excessively.
Uni assessment is really just a utopia of lies.
I have yet to catch up with friends.
I just want this semester to come to a end.
I'm sick facades and false friendships.
I'm sick of the bitching.
I'm sick of the lack of sleep.
I'm sick of being unprepared.
I'm sick of thinking about you.
I need to get you out of my system.
One way or another.
Stalker's are weird and worry me.
I'm tired of always wanting more.
I'm sick of being you're dirty little secret.
I'm sick of people that wonder why i wont fuck them,
When their in a relationship.
I'm sorry i have stupid morals that limit where my dick goes.
Last thing i want to happen is karma
I'm sorry i have stupid morals that limit where my dick goes.
Last thing i want to happen is karma
Putting me in that exact situation.
Good new's i found a decent job.
Though the more i think about it.
The slightly my chances seem.
Regardless i'm hopeful.
The next two weeks are going to be horrid.
Though after that I can work on peicing my life back togeather.
Clubbing, Drinking, Friends, Life's new experiences.
I'm also quite inflatuated with All Time Low - Dear Maria, Let me in.
Good new's i found a decent job.
Though the more i think about it.
The slightly my chances seem.
Regardless i'm hopeful.
The next two weeks are going to be horrid.
Though after that I can work on peicing my life back togeather.
Clubbing, Drinking, Friends, Life's new experiences.
I'm also quite inflatuated with All Time Low - Dear Maria, Let me in.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Optimum
Life's generally going good.
I'm making more and more friends.
I got a few 18th's coming up so it'll be good to see RSHS folk.
I only have 3 more pieces of assessment left.
A annotated bibliography.
A legal interview.
And some legal report.
Did a speech today.
Handed in a annotated bibliography.
I'm knackered.
I need to go clubbing again.
It's been far to long.
I'm going on 5 hours of sleep.
So i'll indepth blog soon.
I'm making more and more friends.
I got a few 18th's coming up so it'll be good to see RSHS folk.
I only have 3 more pieces of assessment left.
A annotated bibliography.
A legal interview.
And some legal report.
Did a speech today.
Handed in a annotated bibliography.
I'm knackered.
I need to go clubbing again.
It's been far to long.
I'm going on 5 hours of sleep.
So i'll indepth blog soon.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Arigato Mr Roboto
Coming home at 2am.
Worth it.
I've had a pretty fucking awesome week.
Got $1500 spending money.
$500 is staying with dad to build up interest.
I got my Xbox.
I did my multiple choice exam.
Some things did get me down.
I didn't get to see someone i wanted to.
People at uni are treating me differently.
I think i know why.
& if i'm right, its not my problem.
I haven't my high school friends in like a month.
I miss you hoes.
Last night was amusing.
Sexual conversations about the art of lasso.
Made me laugh so much.
Life's just good when you focus on the positives.
and!
Welcome Amanda to the blogspot cult.
Side note:
Waxing Girl.
I think we all know who I'm talking about?
Fucking idiot, i had to explain her facebook fortune cookie app.
Finding women appealing is growing more difficult by the minute.
Feminist, ignorance, fat chicks.
They day men become asexual, is the dawn of peace.
Till then i'll hope sex eventually does get better than Terriyaki Chicken.
Oh i failed with the coke.
I think i went a day and a half.
Started to get migraines.
I need to stop eventually.
Just not now.
Still nutella free though.
Worth it.
I've had a pretty fucking awesome week.
Got $1500 spending money.
$500 is staying with dad to build up interest.
I got my Xbox.
I did my multiple choice exam.
Some things did get me down.
I didn't get to see someone i wanted to.
People at uni are treating me differently.
I think i know why.
& if i'm right, its not my problem.
I haven't my high school friends in like a month.
I miss you hoes.
Last night was amusing.
Sexual conversations about the art of lasso.
Made me laugh so much.
Life's just good when you focus on the positives.
and!
Welcome Amanda to the blogspot cult.
Side note:
Waxing Girl.
I think we all know who I'm talking about?
Fucking idiot, i had to explain her facebook fortune cookie app.
Finding women appealing is growing more difficult by the minute.
Feminist, ignorance, fat chicks.
They day men become asexual, is the dawn of peace.
Till then i'll hope sex eventually does get better than Terriyaki Chicken.
Oh i failed with the coke.
I think i went a day and a half.
Started to get migraines.
I need to stop eventually.
Just not now.
Still nutella free though.
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