Never Say Never

So it's been a week.

A heart-clenching, nauseating, regrettable, irreversible week.

A lot of shit went down, though I'm not all that keen on reminiscing.

Though i feel obligated to mention a few things.

Dejan's view of the world from his beloved fence.
This one got to me, i have no idea why though.
I'm generally used to my parent's trying to run my laugh.

Careers, girls i date, what i do in my spare time.
It's routine, i do it so my sister doesn't get it.
Though never did i except it from my friends.
I blocked people out for a while after that.
Personally i gotta thank Gabi and her spider-sense.
Just before i published my blog. She called.
It kinda honestly meant the world to me.
She knew what i was going though.
Cause she went through it herself.
She doesn't get the whole 'Serbian Family' thing.
Though her advice just kinda needed.
I consulted a psychologist that night.
I talked with a mentor/role model from uni about it.

& a few other people that had some idea what i was going through.
The most amusing repose suggested which made me laugh was;

From the psychologist; Honestly, just tell all your friends to go fuck off.
He has a degree that I will consider it.
He was right non the less.
It's my life, they had no right to interfere.
It's my choice, it doesn't affect them.

As much as i would like to say the experience hasn't effected me.

It has, just a lack of faith in friends.
I'm trying to be open, though it fails.
People have not let it go.

Assignments are finally over.
I'm working on getting rested.
I had an awesome plan to go out last night.
Epic fail.

Though i would like to Amanda for offering her place.
Just made it highly amusing.

Realisations:
Crushes are not worth pursuing.
Questions:
Should i point out your flaws?

Somethings we don't talk about.
Rather do without.
Just hold a smile.