In response to Karli and Emelia.
I didn't mean it sarcastically. You know you two are two of my best friends. I meant it as a personal thing. Why is it that i can hold a conversation easier with someone i don't know all that well in comparison to someone i spent 5 years of high school with. At first i thought maybe it's cause they know me too well, but the fact is i rarely see you guys, so why can't we have a conversation like we used to.
I'm gonna go with the idea that it's because i flirt with people that i didn't go to school with. Whether it's serious not or not i do it to pass time. Are sexual innuendo's how to i maintain conversations?
Im like that with everyone, flick and i hadnt seen each other for 3 months before we'd had a sleepover recently, and we still consider each other best friends. Dejan, i wasnt just refering to the last blog you wrote, but seriously you've been having a very 'my friends suck ass' theme happening across alot of your blogs. Pretty sure a couple have pretty much said, my friends can fuck off. I realise things have changed, alot of things have changed since leaving school but that doesnt mean that a lack of contact means the end of friendship. It doesnt mean we care any less. I for one value the idea that even though we dont talk regularily we're still good friends. I have many many friendships like that and they're the ones a value most. In terms of the blog where you wrote about your friends judging you and whatever else, just remember that it wouldnt have been everyone you'd spoken to...and so generalising like that is hurtful for anyone reading that. Anyone that cares enough to consider themselves your friend anyway. And im not here saying, dont be honest on your blogs...be as honest as you are comfortable with being. But remember to be honest with yourself, not just us, because although we're slack in how often we make contact with you...its a two way street. Just remember to not let your anger and resentment about whats happening within your friendships affect how you analyse and make sense of the situation. I think this is quite long enough. P.s respond to this as honestly as you feel necessary, i've been as honest as i can be, and feel absolutely no anger or annoyance about any of this. P.s.s I realise i've blown you off on enough occasions for THAT to be incredibly annoying, but thats just down to my lazy mind not thinking to make a physical note about things i agree to. I've lost count on the times i've done that, regretfully, family member's birthdays among them. Dont judge my committment to our friendship on that basis, cause that wouldnt look too good from anyone's point of view :P
ReplyDeleteUnder no circumstances have i meant to offend you or those that read this. I guess i just haven't been clear enough at who my blogs are directed. First thing is that these blogs are don't string together. If i intend for a blog to reefer to another blog I'll say so, other than that i want people to consider them each to be different. I tend to keep some thoughts over a few days so i can compress them because some thoughts aren't worthwhile to dedicate an entire blog to, like my notions of what career path i want to follow, i know no want wants to spend 20 minutes reading that shit. Though on the other hand some blogs are written in a fit of rage/depression depending on how my day as gone.
ReplyDeleteI write blogs about people that read this, cause it helps me figure out how I'm gonna approach the situation. Also so that the people that do read them know what is going in my life. The 'fuck off' blog you reefer too, i told you what and who it was about and you yourself said i should exclude those people from my life. You're right about my mood, i unfortunately have the pleasure of spending time with people that are unable to comprehend i have changed since high school and still maintain they know what's best for me. And rarely get to see those that i would care to spend time with. Though thus is life.
I know things have changed. Priority's being the biggest one in my opinion. I know my priorities are gonna change next year. I guess i was still under the dissolution that we would all still be this close nit circle. I am happy with the way we have turned out, granted i would have liked to hang out more but uni is uni, we both made the decision, at least know we know what we''re in for. I just I'm waiting for life to pick up, till then you're stuck listing to my rants.