Road Trip

over all it was fun.

the way there was remotely awkward

me and libby still not knowing all that much about dan

and it's been a while since i talked with tim

but it was fun, we got lost

like all road trips

we saw ourselves leaving civilisation

from bustling cities to cows, paddocks and dirt

lots and lots of dirt

we hit a semi casino

the rsl club

and many fast food outlets

cause Warwick fails with entertainment

we hung out with mel's fam

watched movies

hit nature up for a few waterfalls

ate too much junk food

Saturday night was shit

i wanted to go home prematurely

it seems regardless of what i said

someone would have a go at me

digestive problems didn't help

stupid Warwick chicken satay

tim and dan were preoccupied to talked

so i sat on the couch away from everyone

thinking of who to text

after coming to the conclusion

the people i wanted to talk to were either

a) out of credit/never had it in the first place

b) dealing with shit of their own

i didn't bother and just started thinking

i've come to the conclusion that no one knows me

i mean in the sense i've never told someone 100% of the story

i guess in a sense it is a defensive mechanism

after all its the ones we hold close and tell things to

that generally do the most damage

it does have its negatives

but i know that people i hold close

like every other person in the world

myself included, is judgemental

we can not deny it, we are judgemental

some obviously more than others

still a lesson i learnt saturday

i'm glad my parents are ignorant when it comes to sexuality

i left my mobile in tims car so he and dan had to come back

we hung out in front of my house for a bit and talked

i'm glad dad didn't say anything;

i hate the: "If you associate with them, you'll become them" talks

Warwick is weird

everyone knows everyone

they hate city folks

appear to have never seen anyone who looks alternative

I saw dirt

many cows

"Wave Mountain"
Learnt a few lessons
Had laughs with two best friends i havent seen in ages
Became closer to people i didn't associate too much in high school

got groped and bitten by a man

and sang a little on the way home

a nice little adventure

now to catch up on uni
(n)

Tally Ho

road trip!

with lib, tim and dan

on an adventure to see ms gilbert

shall be fun

almost done packing

i'm bringing twister and articulate

cause apparently warwick is a hole

danni's party last night was good

i was overwhelmed to see people from school

i did get intoxicated

which i kinda regret now,

though i think its cause i haven't eaten

i met tim's boyfriend dan

hes pretty cool, easy to get along with

so this 3 hour road trip wont be awkward

i also met ben,

who's apparently the awesomest person in the world

truth be told, he was pretty awesome

he took it upon himself to get involved

which i do thank him for;

ben sorted things out between me and him

(him not referring to ben)

but yeah, I'll see where things go from here

i still feel incredibly guilty for not being there for mum

i got told I'm getting hotter

seems to be a ongoing thing

the older dejan gets the more of a babe he is

side note from training,

while i am the only young white guy

my name is still isn't normal

as a remembrance tool for the new instructors

i heard after training

'An easy way to remember, Dejan it means he who remembers everything'

made me smile.

finders keepers =)

Change of pace

So i had a really shitty week.

Today i thought wouldn't be any better.

Pancake mix had gone to waste.

Toaster didn't work.
Did i get pissy?
No.

I put 'Jamie all over -Mayday Parade' on repeat

& sang out loud.
Gotta love your happy song.
I so went to shower right.

There i am naked.
I hear something outside.

Theres a construction worker right outside the window.

He grinned, after feeling like a bonafided pornstar

I freaked out and put a towel on closed the blinds.

Then i got to Uni.
My tutor is like Ms Brennan's daughter.

Josh is in my class, which is awesome.
Still trying to find the voice to speak out in tuts.

Wednesday Danni's Birthday Dinner.
Friday Dani's party.
Road trip Saturday.
Shall be sweet.

This was no accident,

It was a therapeutic chain of events

shittiest day

today was a lot more melodramatic

in relation to the last blog

i came to the dinner

to be welcomed by clapping of hands

the if your happy and you know it version

what followers of this blog don't know is that

this has been a method to mock me because

someone thinks i might have the clap

cause some idiot bit me once when i got head

seriously;

so i made a scene.

i was fucking pissed off

and i knew it was coming

so i wasn't the favourite person there

i ignored you know who

after we hit southbank, a few of us

she asked for a truce i agreed

for the sake of jenny who was in the middle

those things said, still hurt

my efforts were in vein

i got texts, nasty childish texts
i admitted my faults, but she did not hers

and that fucking pissed me off

she wants to play the victim
she claims she apologised

she never did

i told her about me 'using people'

she denied it

so i was texting jenny at the same time

we both feel that it is our fault that the group is divided

i still think she didn't do anything

but what pisses me off is the person i blame

probably doesn't blame herself

so now i need to find other people to hang with

we're all in a tute Tuesday

what fun?

this is actually making me feel physically ill

Are they worth the effort

Some women aren't worth the effort

I look back and the female friends I've retained

Are kinda masculine, not butch though

Like they have their head screwed on straight

& aren't like OMG LOLZ 'LOOK AT MY HAIR'

Yesterday i got told that i manipulate people

& now this girl i go to uni with, who's pretty rad

Has to treat me differently because

HER FRIEND THINKS I TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HER

when all i fucking did was;

Ask to burrow her ID card for one day, so i could sneak my sister into a ma15+ movie

I mean seriously. wtf

I've kind off gone into the high school circle

When I'm in a group with a majority of women

Though depending on how tonight goes i may change

I'm having dinner with these people tonight

I've met some pretty rad dudes

Only problem is their all over the place socially

If it wasn't for boobs i still think women wouldn't have the right to vote
(no offence)

Post Lecture Blowjobs

long, long day.

though it was quite awesome.
late morning, shitty lecture.

post lecture dalliances

;)

best method to 'wake up'

good ol' griffith kids.

oh, showering with someone

is not romantic

its a little annoying and unhygienic

i went to the bday bbq

i could still smell them on my wrists

made me smile, but then

i smelt other things elsewhere.

so i had to get home and properly shower

Society is weird, high school acts like these were shameful
but now there something to gloat about

i was a little angry at training

i went off at one of the annoying kids

and i gave the finger to one of the kids i like

by accident, i felt soo bad

this weekend i plan on;

Bday Sizzler

Harry Potter 2

Get back on track with exercise

Get through my Study Guides
Help my aunt move

Gab's leaving ff.

We were texting last night quite a bit

Though it may only be a online game

It was were we met, and it feels a bit like school

not as in the educational sense but graduating

D=

I love my new computer!

It's downloading applications 4 times faster than my old one

Oh, Sidenotes;
at the bbq, a ibis stole a sausage;

and tried to turkey slap a girl with it

and we started playing songs from the 90's with the speakers

Nothing is more amusing than watching a group of grown Asian men sing;

Stacy's mom
Jesse's Girl
Catch my Disease
& Teenage Dirtbag

Goodbye, Peter

Ok, this is gonna be a long time.

Sara; not coming you see Red Cliff may in danger your life a little.

So epiphanies, how many time's have i used that word before.
More epiphanies as of late.
You remember that ep of Simspons when Marge does the A Streetcar named Desire musical, and there's a little song and jig entitled "You can always depend on the kindness of Strangers".
That's me, penpals, forums, friends of friends.
Like I met Gabi over FF11 and Mitch over group convo with randoms.
They turned out to be some of the best of friends.

I dislike when people psychoanalyse me, but it does some good.
I met someone, he's got like 3 jobs and still does uni.
Wow, i struggle with unemployment+uni.
I have friends now in my law lectures.
I had my first tut today, ice breakers are horrid.
I did befriend someone, a second year Business student.
I just hate being the youngest in the class.
Oh and i hate the old people.
They complain about technology!

Like this one guy today; bitched how he does everything on the computer and how its unfair that he was to write in the final exam! wtf seriously, its a exam!

fear i think the only thing i really fear is failure.

we all have dreams right, like ones we don't tell our friends.

because we fear nothing than failing ourselves.
i've been thinking about my end goals.
what if i can't achieve them?

Alright I got my future read today again.
My aunt's tarot cards.
Apparently I'm gonna fall in love in the next two years.
A friend is gonna stab me in the back too.
Then I have to overcome that person for the relationship.

While some people aren't all that into tarot cards and what not.
Like i can't say i'm 100% or what.
But when you do like the personality tests and what not.
It can get a little creepy scare about the accuracy.

Chatti's bday bbq tomorrow.
I have to do some shitty mandatory law library tour.
The Peter Pan syndrome is failing.
Though I still want to be the most childish legal practitioner.