Rain Rain Go Away.

There will be no picture this time, cause there is nothing that i can think of that can describe what i am feeling. I used to get sooo frustrated with myself when i would over-emotional about certain topics but feeling emotionless is oh so much worse.

This is not a blog that i wanted to share with those that read it, but i need it. I don't know what to feel so i'm going to put it down on virtual paper, my week isn't getting better at all.

I'm starting to hate the person i becoming, i hate the thoughts i have about people, situations, people's actions and socio-economic and political matters. I want to change back, i hate hate hate change.

I started to watch the one of those medical miracle stories about the mermaid girl. After getting a little lonely up in my room i went downstairs to go see it with mum. We started talking it about it and hard life is for the little girl, i had nothing but admiration for the girl. There was the scene with the mother where she was like "maybe i should've terminated the pregnancy" and i thought to myself i could never kill any form of life, i used to be pro-abortion when we talked about it in school but i guess my opinion has changed.

I've always respected my other except for tonight. She could see i was getting concerned and uptight so she asked me why i was watching it. My reply was simple, i found the story amazing. She said one thing that i found insulting, "Why do you watch the news? Why do you concern yourself with that thing?" What thing you might ask, global warming cause i can see why its not my place to worry about it, its the reason why were in this mess, cause no one cared.

I had a great day, i hung out with a great friend and saw Gran Turino a amazing movie, one which i did not originally plan to see in the cinema's. I got 3 dvd's and training was great, i got the timing right on my jump front kicks and jump side kick. I'm still mad at certain people but yeah all in all its no better to the week im having.

I'm off to watch the transporter to get my mind of things.