Saturday, May 30, 2009

#100

Wow, 100th blog.
ok ok ok, where to begin?
nipples?!

Hmmmm.
Uni classes are over. I'm sad, kinda.
I now realise how many friend i made.
Like in classes, we joke around.It's just nice, like minded people.
I don't really have that many annoying people.
Like we've made plans.
Gonna see Angelic sometime.
Poker night with the study group.
Maybe clubbing with Joe after he turns 18.
And a camping trip.
It's just nice to be accepted in a group again.After high school you do miss it, Uni's getting better.

So now begins my 6 weeks off!
Boo ya!
Assignment's got to me.
Like I literally had to sing out loud at late hours of the night to not fall asleep or go insane!
Gonna miss the tut's, but I know we need new ones, to socialise more.
Adding Uni people on facebook.

Mum and Dad are fighting again, not talking.
What's it about? Money, what else.
Dad ignored me as well.
According to mum its all her fault were in debt.
Probably mine too.

Mum said something. It did kinda scare me.

"If it wasn't for you kids i would have left him long ago"
So it seems divorce is right around the corner.
Life sucks, oh well I'll live.
I need to get a job, to help with the bills.
I hate this economic crises. Especially if it does happen I'll have to support myself.
I don't want to think about the notion, but we all have to eventually 'grow the fuck' and prepare for the harsh realities. I'm frustrated about the fact that I'll probably never move out.

I restarted the piggybank system again, so far $20.
Aims of the holidays:

See high school friends.
Go clubbing.
Catch up on sleep.

(Y).

Thanks em and amanda for a few nights ago.
Don't really want to be too sappy on this.

Ok since its the 100th blog, here is one of the most awesomeist pictures in the life of Dejan Tomasovic, it should hold a space in the hearts of those that did ftv.


You-ve made your bed - You me at six; new favourite song.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Fail

I tried so hard not to conform to blogs about something sad.
I tried to continue with consistent happy blogs.
But you, why?
I just want to forget you. I just can't believe the immaturity.
Though I know I'll never forget you and that's what makes me all that much more mad.
The fact that thinking about you, actually hurts somewhere here.
*points to stupid chest area*
I know I won't me able to sleep now.
Because i inquired.
Stupid curiosity, why did I ever want to be your friend.
This is blog #99, better make the next one fucking awesome.
So I need something big to happen.

Confident

Ok Uni is pretty sweet, i take back what i said about it.

I made a close group of friends in one day!
Were contemplating a camping trip during the holidays.
All i had to do was;

1.Objectify women
2.Hit on all the women in the group
3.Make remarks about a dude's supposed sexual ability to make other people laugh
4.Act a little arrogant.

So basically i just had to be me.
Wow, why was it so hard to begin with?

Think i do regret a few things.
Like letting them get to me know me so quickly.
Cause now were in a computer lab, with about 20 people.
Discussing my sexual mishaps.
Haha at least the cleaner is having a good laugh.
Im about 55% done this assignment.
Though i whole heartedly intend to go to home and draw pictures of me and libby married once the day comes to an end.
(Y)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Good news

Today brings more good news.
I had a great lecture.
Surprisingly.
Cracked a few jokes.
Made a few people laugh.
Starting to like Uni.

I found out what i thought was 4 weeks of holidays.
Is now 6 weeks off.
Starting Saturday.
:)

Its good cause I'll finally be able to see friends.
I'm still making irrational choices but still.
Life is sweet.

I like this notion of being happy.
Hopefully will finish my assignment today.
Maybe I'll work on getting my P's.
Who know's.

Monday, May 25, 2009

A change in methodology

Scoreeeeeeeeee.
I got invited into a study group tomorrow.
Its a good way to make friends.
So i am starting early on my assignment.

I found out my classes stop this week!
So i technically have a month off.
Have to go back 3 days for exams.
Life is good.

Memory lane












These make me smile.
=]
That new cooking show bugs me.
People make food that makes you hungry.
Then 3 fat men eat it and bitch.
]=

Printed out the final assignment.
Doesn't look to bad.
Oh god GNW made me laugh today.
TV<3

BTW,
The blurry semi-red pic,
Was the RSHS musical.
Anyone remember?

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Cloudy nights

I feel empty?
Like not depressed, or stressed.
Just bored with life.

I have one assignment.
When i think, what can i do?
Its all i think about.

I haven't started it.
I don't want to.
Even though, it'll gives me a reason to tell people,
Why i don't hang out with people.
Uni work sounds better than no one has time for each other anymore.

I need something.
I don't want to continue doing what I've been doing to feel alive.
Its not worth it.
It's to much effort.
I miss the good ol' days.

I wish i could go back to last weekend.
Everything pre-tuesday was awesome.
Life on a high.

Uni tomorrow.
Counting down 5 more days till the weekend.
You know when you get down, and you make a promise to god?
Like if this happens, I'll give up this.
I made one of those recently.
It happened, but not the way i was expecting it.
I think God was probably a lawyer before God.
Finding all these loop holes.
Non the less I'm gonna stick to my word.
And hope for the best.
It's all about faith, isn't it?

Saturday, May 23, 2009

A sense of equanimity

Today was simple.
Simple is good.
Last night i was an experience.
Too say the least.
I now know why 18 is when people say life begins.
Cause I'm slowly discovering myself.
Well at least things about myself.
One more assignment.
How's life going everyone?
I think I'm gonna head towards the UN
or maybe family/environmental law?
The stuff about Aung San Su Chi has been pissing me off.
Of only i was a political figurehead with the ability to wage war with idiotic countries.

I am so entering the scissors paper rock completion,
anyone want to tag along?

Friday, May 22, 2009

So you made that barrel

Yesterday
Was horrid.
I got relatively no sleep.
Worrying to much.
I spent 6 hours in a library.
Held my bladder for 5.
Got my assignment done.
I feel so free.
But like i have some assessment to do.
Which i do, but i don't want to think about it.
I need to stop overreacting.
I learnt that today.
I'm just glad my friends are cool.
Now its time to crash.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Almost!

Its gonna be past 5 when i leave.
I just want to go home.
Shower and lie in bed.
& never ever ever again think about abortion.
As far as I'm concerned some form of bird still delivers.

One more assignment, then prep for exams.
Soon to be over with.
Then I shall drink myself stupid.
Not alone.
But Clubbing.
Shall be sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

All this assignment is making me what to do is kill people.

Life goes on

Third blog of the day.
I just feel like talking.
I really don't want to finish off my assignment tonight.
So I'll leave it till 'moro.
Training was sweet.
Seriously sore.
Spent a fair bit of time dropping Abder Rahman.
Then he got to drop me.
yay...
Something Rob said,
In the past 6 months he's said i've changed.
Like not physically but mentally.
Like i started out kinda whimpy.
Now I'm taking hits.
Its good overcoming yourself.
Ignorant people piss me off.
How can you hate someone.
Purely on the notion they like someone better than you.
I mean seriously, I'm not rubbing it in your face,
Just deal with it dude.

Now to go cook some vegetables.
Life sucks.
I miss chicken (N)

I had to squeeze through a group of heavy ladies to get to my bus.
I came out of the crowd a bisexual i think.
; ;

You fool

Today i found out my cousin has been arrested.
7 month's for drink driving w/o a licence.
Ok i know it was stupid of him.
But serious 7 months.

Our justice system pisses me off.
We learn that 1/1000 people go to prison.
There are approximately 12 or more exit holes when going through the system.
AND! its never the murderers, the pedophiles, the rapist.
Its just those from low socio-economic backgrounds doing small things.

On top of being what we eat.
We are our experiences.
I have no idea how i can consider going to law.
And prosecuting knowing i won't win.
Cause society really doesn't want the rapist to go to prison.

I've done my rough draft off my essay.
I just need to do the conclusion.
Though there's a hitch.
1000 words short.
I don't know how i could've done it so briefly.
Oh well, always tonight and tomorrow.

I decided I'm going to cocoon myself from the world
for my next piece of assessment.

I'm not down.
Just tired and drained.
I love Madina lake cause it always feels like they know me.
And I'm sure these lyrics reflect some other people.

So many voices, I can't even sleep,
Typical in night company.
They ask questions about my life,
"Where is he going?"
Who am I?
And those voices rip me all apart.

Welcome to oblivion,
Where my whole life is caving in
And I can't stand who I am.
Oh, I think I'm losing it.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Saturday please come

Last night was horrid.
Nightmares, thoughts, I'll discuss that tonight.
I'm in the library doing my second last assignment.
I've spent some time in here.
Its soo weird.
I used to bludge and now i work my arse off.
Like i spent a lot more time in the library than required.
Also the notion that those 'nerds' are now the bludgers.
Though I shall be excited if i get another 6 or 7.
My comp at home won't let Microsoft work.
Though this assignment is getting me depressed.
I've spent about a hour reading abortion stories.
It gets you down.

It is impossible to find a case study.
I don't even know what a case study is.
Saturday is life.
Freedom from these education chains.
I have one more assignment after this one.
But i have a week to do it.
I just can not wait for a social life.
I haven't played video games in like two weeks.
I have not seen my friends in about 1 week.
I find it hard to talk to people on msn.
Cause that voice in the back of my head just wants to think about this.

I'll be back to normal soon enough.
I want to go clubbing now more than anything.
I just need people, lots and lots of people.
No sense of personal space.
& really loud noises.
Just to feel alive again.

Oh side note.
"Curiosity killed the cat" right?
Curiosity mentally scared the inquisitive sister that asked to many questions which now require her to find a new park once we get a dog to take for walks.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Stupid Hydrogen

The rain just frustrates me.
Kept me up.
Makes to to damn cold.
I didn't go to my morning lecture.
Not going to the afternoon ones.
May go to my tut.
It making me feel confined.
Not just cause the back and front yard are flooding.
I woke up and dad was digging a canal with a spade.
Made me laugh, his ingenuity impresses me.
I soon realised that canal was taking backyard water to the front.
So we don't get flooded.
Go man go!

Its been two weeks since i started dieting.
Lost 5kg =D
I hit training last night and Frank said asked what i was doing cause the change was noticeable.
So gonna start thinking positive.
I think i may have screwed things over with a good friend.
Gonna wait till the weekend before i do anything.

Now to take out this assignment

Happy Chappy

Woo
Finally saw wolverine
Oh god it brought back so many Marvel flashbacks
I almost jizzed in my pants,
Then i realised it would be awkward on Hannahs behalf

Training tonight,
I need to tire myself out.
Hmm its weird.
My blogs are generally pretty long.
Wow,
I don't have anything to talk about.
:S

Monday, May 18, 2009

The Great Escape

I've always played the numbers game.
Never risked much.
Till last night.
2 am, snuck out.
Had a great time.

Lifes no fun without any risk.
I think i want a relationship now.
Not a 100% but hey.
I'm still young.
Future just seems to be getting brighter.
Regardless if everyone calls me a slut.
(Y)

Sunday, May 17, 2009

A little kinky

Life's pretty sweet.
Had a awesome conversation with Karlee and Amanda.
Love distractions.

I pose a question.
Amanda seeks i get a tattoo.
Of a black lesbian female pirate on a pirate ship.
With my nipple Incorporated into the tattoo as a cannon.

Karlee thinks i should get it around my penis.
With it being the cannon.

Then i can incorporate innuendos such as,
"Thar she blows"
Even though my penis is not a 'she'
and if i get someone in the eye.
They can wear a eye patch and stay in character.

It was a long thorough conversation.
The use of hollow wooden legs as condoms and what not.

I don't know if I'll get the tattoo.
Who knows.

Oh uni assignment 3/5ths finished.
/cheer.
I know I'm not gonna get a 7.
Though anything above 5.5 is good.
(Y)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Falling Balls

City + Libby
= sweeeeet.

& saw Clayton
bonus.
it was good to see her.
way tooo long.
city was fun.
spent way too much
though i did need uni clothes
gym today again.
added more weight.
now have blisters.
eh its worth it in the long run.
I know a lot of people have claimed they
want to lose weight.
just do it.
the satisfaction of doing 30mins-1hour
is worth it.
really really don't want to start my assignment.
(n)

Friday, May 15, 2009

Its that time of year again

Eurovison
*dance*

I love it.
I camp myself downstairs with mum and dad.
We criticize and and laugh.
Dad makes the fat jokes.
So i think it's inherent

My favourites from the first semi final;
Macedonia with a pretty sweet take on rock
Israel for their anthem of peace
Portugal just kicked ass
Turkey was catchy
Bosnia was another good one
Romania just had really hot women

If you get bored youtube Portugal;
focus on the guy on the bongo
though i hope Israel gets in
sang it in 3 languages hoping for peace

I doubt I'm gonna go to creswalk
city tomorrow with Libby
*dances*
been too long

Went to my mums boss's house today
she had coffee and i hit their home gym
I may get one myself
Going back tomorrow
after the city

I saw a old friend from work
like coles work
Things are good
Eurovision for 2 more days
I just got to make time for my annotated bibliography

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Up to you Kiddo

Self motivation
The key to everything.
I'm am sick of people.
Sick of trying to talk to people.
So I'm not gonna bother.
I'm making friends.
I want to be positive.
I want to have fun.

I really want to go to Creswalk.
BUT YOU ALL FAIL!
:P

I'm focusing on the positives.
I'm gonna start spending time at the uni bar.
Oh the bus back from uni,
I ran into Amy, Hannah Willmont and Hannah Walker
We sat up the back and boy did we laugh
I'm glad everyone hasn't changed

Immaturity still wins respect
We had a associated professor for ethics
A young gay nervous man
A guy placed his phone on the desk before he arrived
The pro. held it up and asked if it was anyone's
As he held it in front of the mic it was called
The theatre echoed with "I'm a tits and ass man"
We call cried
Destroyed the poor mans self-esteem

Oh Ethics tut
We just spent the lesson Youtubing
"The chasers war on everything"
Oh how things are swell.

Assignment Due monday.
Today starts my 4 day freak out.
T_T
I've gone with application overload.
Meh.

Oh I'm on the verge of finishing my first video game since i graduated.
I know its lame, but it always made me feel like king of the world.
I love how they teach me lessons.

"If things don't work out, don't spend time worrying about it.
Move on. Persevere and wait for tomorrow to come"

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

A bunch of coconuts

Today has been surprisingly good.
Joe made me listen to Happy Rave Girl.
Which surprisingly put me in a good mood.
Even if i do have 3 lectures and a tut.
Saw Mr Kung Fu do this thing.
His pelvic thrusts always reduce me to tears.
Though today was different.
He was happy.
'Stiffly happy' as it were?
I cried.
It was horrible.
Literally like a bent tap.
So we call it the tap now on.

I've come to the conclusion i have 3 happy songs.
Listening to any of these songs will boost my mood;
Getaway - Holiday Parade
Like Satellites - Over it
Big City Dreams - Nevershoutnever

Uni's awkwardness is nice.
When you meet a person.
And can consider them a friend.
We had a great discussion about how people awkwardly ignore each other after classes.
Oh well, 3rd Uni friend!
Making process.
Contemplating going to the Uni Bar and getting drunk with him tomorrow.
Would make my law lecture all that much more interesting.

Last night i rewrote and deleted three blogs.
I'm not gonna write about them cause things seem to be changing with people.
For the better, and i'm glad.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Karma

Ok stop punishing me!
It was one weekend of drinking!

God hates me.
I had to do the PowerPoint for my presentation tomorrow, tonight.
Neither Microsoft word or PowerPoint worked on the laptop.
PowerPoint didn't work on the computer.
And when i used my sisters comp.
The screen literally broke off!

I mean come on!
There's only one other thing he can do to ruin my day.
Last week i lost 3kg.
yay go self-conscious me
So come tomorrow ill probably like be +10kg?

At least the PowerPoint is done.
Tomorrow a speech.
Then two assignments.
Followed by exam block.
Then holidays.
at last

Karli, clubbing in two weeks with Amanda?
and for all those that wish to join.
interesting note;
makes me laugh out loud.
I released that while in the cab last night.
We got into a heated argument with the taxi driver.
The topic of this quarrel;
"Who produces more wheat, Punjab or Serbia".

Saturday, May 9, 2009

A change of pace

Happy Happy Happy
Last night was Awe-some!

I was meant to go clubbing but didn't.
Dress codes, transport, predrinking and what not.

So we instead hit 3 parties.
Oh wow did i drink.
I met my cousins best friend from high school.
Formally, I just know him as the dentist.
But dudee he is fucking awesome.
His gf is hot.
His car is HOT.
& his house, OMG.
It's like a fucking mansion.
His pool glows in the dark.
Like in the movies.
I want to be a dentist now.

I met my cousins gf, she was nice.
Must amusing my cousin has a friend.
Their relationship is exactly like what i have with libby.
It baffled me.
But it was nice.
Only difference is Libby doesn't call me Betty.
She christened me "Little Cuz".
That name stuck.
I got drunk.
Sang Serbian folk music.
Twas good.

About 2 we decided to hit out final destination.
By that stage we were deeply intoxicated.
When we found the house.
Oh how we laughed.
At everything and anything.
It was the best night in a while.
It was what i needed.
I got to talk with another cousins fiance.
Fuck hes hilarious.
Made me cry a few times.

To my family
And new found family.
Thank you for an unforgettable night.

If you want to fly, well that's not that absurd.
If you want to cry we won't breathe a word.
If you want to lie down, well forget what you heard.
Cause we've all got some tables to turn.

Like Satellites - Over it.
Helps me get through the day.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Today's adventure

For the purpose of this blog.
GO SEE ROLE MODELS.

Ok seen it?
Good.

Ok, dream/nightmare rip off.
My life is fusing into dreams.
You recall the final 'fight scene' in the movie.
The supernerd war.

That was my dream.
It was at warrigal road primary.
And me and a friend from South Aus were in a team.
And we were going good.
Until.

A team of sailor scouts beat us.
I knew there was a reason i didn't like Sailor Moon.
But this is this is where it gets weird.
Sailor Moon was a transvestite.

I woke up and i was like;
WHAT THE FUCK at 5am.

Its weird.

Its fused.
Role Models.
99 nights.
Gabi cause shes leaving for America soon.
Sailor Scouts from all those facebook personality quiz's.
The transvestite gets me non the less.

Scary dream.
Highly amusing.

Another notes:
Old women on the bus: FUCK YOURSELVES!
Seriously, if your not gonna give up your seat.
Do not make a scene involving me.
Really a horrible way to start the day.

Finally started talking to uni girls.
Like I've made a few friends but still.
I had to give a speech on Equity and Aboriginal Land titles.
And you have to create a discussion.
Final question was "What should i get mum for mothers day"
I had about 6 girls crowd around at me.
Shouting things as i wrote them down.
It was a nice break :)
Karli don't kill me.
I may have changed my view on global warming.
We had a much heated discussion.
Apparently the amount of CO we can produce is nothing in comparison to a carb. volcano.
So i need to look into that.
I know its inevitable that were gonna go into a ice age.
Its ok i guess if its a cycle.
I just want to know so i can rewatch the day after tomorrow.

I got my ipod, finally!
First bday present.
Its nice.

Sweeeet

Not only have i been screwed over.
Kinda stabbed a little.
But now replaced.
I commend you on your speed.
Always good to know your not worth a two digit figure,
nor a week of time.

Would i have been happier if i never tried.
and only wondered?

I need a getaway.
From this.
From you.
Sit by a shore.
Let the tide try to take me away.
Oh how I wish i could take that trip to South Africa now.

Sick of trying to get myself together.
Sick trying to keep my head so high.
Sick of being targeted.

I think about all the great friends i have.
For the life of me I don't know how I met them.
I just want to know where I can get more to take your place.

Pensive

Eastern philosophies and lessons learnt through them are horrid
I was always told by a specific man he could tell when i was lieing.
& I now know why!

Modesty
Ok Ok
Stop laughing and hear me out.
Today i had to tell a fib.
A white lie.
I wasn't going to attend training cause of an assignment.
Its technically true.
Though I'm not doing it from Uni.
Doing it at home.

So i texted the instructor that i wasn't attending tonight.
I felt like i kidney exploded.
I felt physically ill.
Just from a simple text.
& when he texted back.
I started to freak out.

Like; FUCK CAN HE READ MY MIND!
But it was a 'hope to see you next week' reply.

I dislike this.
Its not fair.
I should be able to lie.
And not have nightmares and regrets about it.

What is wrong with me?

I'm glad most people i know are feeling somewhat better.
It makes me feel better.
I'm freaking out about exams.
Like ; ; freaking out.

Oh i'd like to thank dad.
My vege/sushi diet.
right
HE BRINGS HOME PIZZA.

; ;

I like pizza, and i didn't want to eat it.
But it was pizza or apples.

I'm trying to give up coke.
Urgh its so hard.
Only been two days and i want to cave in.
I need suger >.>

I'll finish this blog another time.
I've had to rewrite it.
And I'm waiting for someone to reply so i can sort things out.
I hate 15 minute interval conversations.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Success!

JSB176: Criminal law in context
Hardest subject this semester.
A crap load of material to review.
All in legal jargan.
I got my assignment back.
I was literally shaking after seeing people get like 20/30.

I need to have a GPA of 5.5 to get into law next year.
What did i get?

26/30!
86.something%
SUCK ON THAT!
So now my GPA is around the 6 mark.
I gotta review what i got for another subject.
For the worksheets.
But yeah i am soo stoked.
Someone actually said; "I can't believe you got better than me"
Ha! I say, I told you not to underestimate me.

I may or may not have done a little jig on campus.

bite me society!

I hate someone.
Like i can not stand to be around them.
There soooo arrogant.
No anyone i blogged about lately.
He purposely sang opera to piss me off.
Put be in a shitty mood.

But then i watched Kung-foo'y for a good hour.
Hes a 40 something year old white man.
Who attempts martial arts on trees.
Wow you can kick a leaf.
Almost as impressive as your inability to gain balance afterwards.

Oh how he amuses us.
I do have intentions of fighting him before i graduate.
Shall be the highlight of my uni experience.

Oh you know whats scary?;
Logging onto facebook.
Clicking the little red flag.
And having.
"Scott Nealson is hitting you with a pillow, hit back?"

It'll be a cold day in hell before i get into a pillow fight with him.

Monday, May 4, 2009

To the dear African-American Lesbian Man-Hating Pirate that holds a special place in my heart



Dear Amanda, this is for you <3.

Confounded

Lost
Confused
Scared
Stressed
Angry
Cold
Oblivious

I had a conversation with myself.
Out loud.
Making eye contact with myself in the mirror.
Asking myself who i wanted to be.
What i wanted to be.
What did i want to be doing.
I broke out into song.
Muttering lyrics in hope of epiphanies.
Fist clenched.
Eyes watered.
No tears were shed.
Contradictory statements.
An effortless struggle.
That left me distraught.

90% of my friends are depressed.
I literally do not have time to be depressed myself.
I looked myself in the eye.
Echoed the same propaganda i feed them to make them happy.
Why didn't it work?!
I can pull it from every angle.
The past 5 months have felt like a psychology degree.

I miss my 'fire'..
My passion.
My raw emotion.
My fighter's spirit.

The world still scares me.
And I don't know if i want to fight to conform.
Kevin Rudds green trading scheme delay angers me.
The notion of the Chinese empire scares me.
Why don't i have the willpower to do anything about it?

I know what I want to do with myself.
I don't know what i want to do with my life.
I tell no one because i know what will happen.
Ridicule.

I just want to find my feet.

"I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering
what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposter's everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned"

Go fuck yourself

Seriously.
I am sick of it.
I am sick of you.
What is it with fucking ignorant people.
Considering themselves god.

You are not better than me.
You never have, never will.
I have know you for quite a while.
So i know its true.
Get of that high horse and shoot yourself.

You are too fucking arrogant.
I can't stand being around you.
I just want to hit myself.
You have no idea what i am capable off.

I know what i am capable off.
Trust me when i say I will make a lot more out of life.
Then you ever will.

Just tired off it.
I know how why i get along with older people better.
The maturity.
I know I am immature at times.
Though when I think your immature;
Others probably thing your a fucking moron.
argh.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Albatross

Today was pretty sweet.
Spent the day with mum.
We went to my uncles.

I managed to hold my ground,
Full Serbian conversation on Materialism.
I've never lasted so long.

Quite proud of myself.
(H)

Over the years i have become quite distant with my relatives.
I never knew how much it affected them.
I swear i saw their eyes gleaming.
Boy did i feel bad.

So I'm gonna make an effort to see 'em more often.
& spend time with mum and dad.

I had the option of going 'clubbing' with cousins tonight.
Like Serb only clubbing.
I passed, only one cousin was going.
I don't want to be a tag along.
It's also hard.
Cause i'm 18 and their 24-30.
I love 'em and such.
Just need to get over my self-doubt.
& dance.

Oh interesting fact.
Amongst their remenising.
I learnt back when mum and cousins were growing up.
If a person had their watch upside down;
I mean in the sense the clock part
was on the wirst; it was a sign they were in a relationship.
Does that apply here?

Excited about tomorrow.
Protest for refugee rights.
I don't know how strongly I'm for it.
We've been discussing it a lot in Ethics.
So I'm hearing both sides.
Its a hard topic.
I wish it was simpler, but its not.
Besides, everyone should have rights.
Right?
I think so, so I'll be there.

I spoke to Ben today.
4 months i do believe.
It was nice.
You don't talk to people for a while.
Then it just hits you how much you missed them.
I know its not likely I'm gonna stay in touch with all my friends.
I'm gonna try like hell non the less.

Comps back!
Online gaming.
It's good to talk to old friends.
A couple i befriended are having a baby.
I'm excited, i get emails from them occasionally.
She should be due really really soon.
Though I see now how people really overreact.
I befriended a french couple.
Learnt a few things.
I don't log on for a few weeks.
They break up.
"Oh big deal dejan" you say?

Jesus Christ.
I log on today.
He starts talking.
"She's this, she's that"
"Tell me if she says anything bad about me won't you?"
?_?

No offence.
In my experience this is the first time a guy's overreacted.
Aside from the whole,
"I love her one day, i hate her the next" thing
wtf
But yeah she was fine about it.
Didn't acknowledge me.
Bitch :L
I kid.
Though people gotta take a chill pill these days.

Thus is life so far.
(y)
I miss the consistency of friends.
I hope it'll get better.
I just miss hugging.
Walkway hugging.
Why is packed to the rafters winning so many logies?

Albatross->Word of the day->The little rescuers->
The boobs shot->'laughing out loud'.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

The only winners tonight are the children

Karli thank you so much for getting me out of the house.
It was good to see the gang.

I fund raised for the first time.
Oh the rejection.
But it was worth it.
We made a gang of 15 year olds;
doing a very similar thing.
Handing out flyers instead of collecting.

I got to see my first NRL Game.
Ok like tv wise its boring like fuck.
But we all got into it.
Haha it was quite fun.

Train ride home.
Memorable!
We sang with a Jamaican guy.
Then they left.
So we continued to sing.
The girls dance.
Train security came.
We got scared.
Then they sang along.
Oh how it was funny.
And they danced!
A 60 something year old man shuffling.

Oh twas a wonderful night.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Risible

Oh to be risible again;

First of all;
Karli your blog topic is extension cords.
Jayce I'm glad someone saw the depth and raw emotion XD
Libby, you're corpulent with a microphallus.

Stupid mind, i hate you so.
I spent hours rethinking that conversation.
Until i convinced myself it was my fault and i felt bad.
wtf!

I recall a cutscene of the first video game i feel inlove with.
The protagonist decribes that he hates sleeping;
'cause its the only time theres no sound to silence his thoughts.
I never thought it would be me.

Today wasn't all to great.
I felt out of place in my first lecture.
& i felt i voiced my opinion's to much in the second.
I hate when no one else will talk.

I got my computer back.
Oh how it feels so good to have my scapegoat back.
Stupid reality.

Haha i overheard a economics study group.
Oh god how it sounded like ours.
I miss that class most of all.

It doesn't make choosing a degree all that much easier.
I feel like I'm shooting in the dark.

Kinda crushed,
We're not moving.
Bank wanted a $5-10,000 deposit.
We don't have that much money.

Dad said next year if we start to save.
We lose $7000 of government grant money though.
I know i now need to get a job.
I don't want to work and do Uni.
But i have no choice now.

You know what makes my day?
Cadbury adds.
First Gorilla's now possessed children.
The spontaneuity puts a smile on your face.