Friday Night

Ok to start off, Dear Sara your blog is pissing me off it wont let me comment! =@ That and i'll most likely forget when i sign onto msn to tell you.

Going clubbing tonight after a couple of failed attempts. Like I'm looking forward to it and all but then on the same note I'm not really. Amanda my dearest lesbian don't take it personally I'm stoked to be hanging out with you again but its just the notion that you're gonna be the only person i know there. My intentions weren't to get laid or hook up the first time I just wanted to have fun and enjoy the night though I'm sure I'm overreacting and it'll all go swell.

Pre-Drinks at eight, i gave mum and dad money to buy me a 4 pack of Smirnoff. Dad overreacts as much as i figured. Why are you drinking before? Why are you even going out tonight? Why do they have to have alcohol there? Fine, don't listen to me. Their memories of clubbing a lot different culturally to what they are here, so I'm trying not to hold it against him but you can only bottle your feelings for so long.

I'm frustrated with being frustrated. I just seem to be getting angry. I know that most of the people aren't purposely trying to piss me off (I have doubts about a few people) though its just frustrating day after day. It does have its bonuses, training last night went pretty awesome, a lot easier when your have a mental image of someone to hit. Though I'm worried i don't want to be angry especially with grading coming up on Sunday. Nervous as fuck. I know my material I've done it a crap load. We revised last night. Still just worried something will go wrong.

Muscles are still sore from the demo. Especially my right shoulder. I really don't want to think about all the people that are gonna be watching me Sunday. Especially my own family, aside from Sladjana none of them have seen me train aside from my first week.

I'll probably blog later, contemplating a nap, this weather sucks for everything else. I think i might go for that Westpac job though I'll probably hold out for Big W or something relatively normal for someone my age.

Oh before I forget, RIP MJ. I'm not gonna join the facebook craze cause I have doubts whether people actually liked him. We're conforming by emotion, we all saw it in the final year of school. Things will change, I am sad that he is dead, but i should be because I don't mourn ever minute that someone dies so why should this be any different. Though with his passing at least his family will get a break from the media and we'll get a break from our news constantly discussing the damn Ute scandals regardless that's it's really not a scandal, its a freaking Ute.