Behind closed doors

So today's my first day off in a while. Oh how depressing it was. I got my first taste of working full-time. It wasn't the most enjoyable thing in the world but when you have a body clock and you wake up early to a day of nothing it's even less exciting. I attempted to stay in bed as long as possible, waking up twice thinking 'oh fuck, I'm late for work'. I watched Red Cliff and ate.

For the next month and a half I'll be in debt. I'm well aware of it. I know that I'll be going into it. I wish i didn't have to, but oh well. I'll be leaving for South Australia on the 11th and coming back on the 19th. It's not going to be the most relaxing plane trip. I leave the day after stock take at work and come back the day before Soundwave. Majority of my money will be going towards my PS3 fund, and I'll also be paying for my ticket to South Aus. On the side i also have to think about holiday spending money and soundwave merchandise and maybe I'll have to pay a few ladies to get naked and cause a distraction so i can get backstage. Uni also starts up at the end of February. I think my book list is like $300. GTFO Qut. The only good thing about repeating a subject is not having to purchase material for it. It's going to a rough change. I went from working a fair bit and spending ever weekend in Carindale with friends to reading, reading and well you guessed it; more reading. Farewell Deej, hello Number: 07181647.

I need to change who i am. Well certain aspects about me. I know who i want to be but i just lack the motivation to do it. I'm sick of regrets, right now the things i regret are having certain people as friends and the most would be probably sleeping with certain people. I'm sick of you seeing you people around, i roll my eyes and gag at the notion we used to stand together in a close proximity. never again.

Also i want to know if there is a scientific reason for just not liking someone from the first moment you meet them? Like i don't hate you; i just hate everything about you and everything you do.

Social groups are changing. Enemies becoming friends, friends becoming enemies. I don't know what to expect when uni starts. The saddest notion is that i won't see my friends from high school aside from birthday parties. I wish we all just had the motivation to see each other a little more. I know we can survive without each other. Those in relationships need no one, those in new friendships attempt to make time for each other, i know it's sad, but i miss quite a few of you.

Nerdy Side Note: I've put together a pile of games I'm gonna trade in for credit on my PS3. It's so sad that I'm attached to so many of them. Like Psychic Force which i played when i was like 7? I'm never gonna play it again but it was a pretty awesome game even if it had only eight characters. I know that I'm materialistically clingy, oh well.