Things i do for love

Oh dear bed sheet.
How for ought thou?
Your deep blue cover currently reflects those feelings of my soul.
I sit here and ponder;
Are you linen? cotton? or polyester?
I dare not ask
I am glad you aren't made out of silk non the less.

I admire your strength.
You hold this mattress so tight.
And provide me enduing comfortably.

You and your kind play a large roll in this world.
You are the main reason why people have affairs.
Aside from breasts and a penis.
You are a maids best tool.

Your seams.
Are much like a humans imposable thumbs.
You would not be much without it.
Something oh so small holds so much weight in your ability.
Oh how your are mysterious oh great mattress.

You sometimes have an accomplice.
Now i ask you a question.
Are you the "top sheet"
or the "bottom sheet"

The bed sheet even has a sexual innuendo.
Karli, i hope you've enjoyed.
And have now come to the conclusion,
we shoud make love
on bed sheets.

Mellifluous

Today was peaceful.
I got a free bus ride cause the machine was broken.
I made two new friends.
I destroyed Tracy by making her repeatedly say penis in a lecture.
Went to a random forum last night and met a stranger.
We payed out people freaking out about the swine flu.
If we survived the bird flu, this one won't harm us.
He made me realise life gets better after Uni.
When you figure out what you want to do.
He made me question my degree.
Its hard.
I want to do law/justice.
But the system sucks.
I dunno if I'll be able to change the system.
Still confused.
Mum bought me some herb things for stress.
So I'm starting on those.
Had sushi, trying to eat healthy.
Consistency is a bitch.
Though i love the staff at Sushi Delight.
Lecturer finished half a hour early.
(Y)
Training in a hour.
I hope my calf muscle stops being a bitch and mans up.

I want to go to go to the beach sometime.
I missed out this summer.
I just wan't to watch the sunrise.
Damn Karli's blogs.
For some reason i'm looking to being 30.
Cause I'm hoping to have a kid by then.
Already planning his life.
DX

The reason is you

JSB 175 -Ethical theories is the reason i go to uni
If it wasn't for that class, I'd have dropped out.

Today we were supposed to talk about
Mercy in the Courtroom.

Now to list what we did talk about;
-Jizz in my pants
-Korean glow in the dark Beagles
-Male Porn Stars
-Men self-sucking
-Sexuality
-Religion
-Each others sex life
-Crazy prepubescent girls on crack
-Would we have sex with Aliens
-Probing
-A Russian woman who cut her husbands dick off

Oh and one chick showed everyone this video of a guy who had a 10" dick.
Tutor's reaction;

"Whats so funny?
HOLY SHI...!
IS THAT REAL?!"

Oh boy did we cry.
Shes not a tutor.
Shes one of us.
Just with kids.
Oh how i love that class.

"Does every other guy feel inadequate?"
A guy from the back row shouted.

Eleemosynary

I'm gonna help out a eleemosynary cause with Karli this weekend.

A very masculine afternoon.
Watched Ellen and The View with dad.

(y)

Wasn't long till we get to arguing.
I am sick of this conversation.

"You can be what ever you want to be.
As long as you figure it out in the next 7 months"

I am 18.
I have no fucking idea.

He tried to reword it so it seemed lenient.
He talked for an hour.

I sat there;
grunting.

sighing.
and making that 'mmm' sound.

Stop bringing Anghel into the conversations.
So what he did a criminology degree.
I AM NOT GOING TO BE HIM.
ever.

It just pisses me off.
Part of me just wants to drop out of Uni to see his head explode.
Then he goes onto;
"If you want to be a police officer, drop out and do the course"
If i ever mentioned it, I'd get crucified.
If i take his advice I'll get crucified.
Along with "That's not what i meant"

Certain People enrage me a little.
Those that don't know what Uni is like.
And claim to do.

I want to do things my way.
If i need advice, I'll ask.
I ask a lot surprisingly.

Training in about half a hour.
Will he be there?
Apologising in a public place is a smart idea.
If you don't accept you're the bad guy.
Though he won't be there.
I know it.

I'm not in the mood for it.
Got to type up my mini-oral tonight.
I don't want to spend 2 hours with him tomorrow.
If i hit him, regardless how arrogant he is.
I'll get kicked out of uni.

Oh i got a message from her.
She's out of hospital.
That made me happy.
Lets hope tonight goes well.

Alea Iacta Est

latin for "The die has been cast"

FREAK OUT FREAK OUT FREAK OUT!
I AM HYPERVENTILATING.

$400, 000 loan
+
$40,000 loan
=
A house
in
JULY!

AND A PUPPY!
/score!

Dads talking about painting, tiling, re carpeting.
Were gonna get a spa.
Though i still want a pool.
I just don't like idea of a 25 year old.
Oh Jesus Christ
I'll be 44!

Oh god i hate freaking out.
I want a husky.
Named Shiva or Avalanche.
Mum wont let me get a Dalmatian.

Hmm maybe Ifrit.
Thats too nerdy.
Though I really wanted to name it after one of the 101 Dalmatians.

This is turning out to be a most eventful week.

"This is our last chance to get a house, if we don't do it now it'll never happen, I never thought we'd take such a risk"
-Dad.

Some friend aye;

Oh god how you piss me off.
I know why you weren't there.
Always thinking about yourself.
I can't wait to hear your fucking excuse.
I don't even know if your worth it anymore.
Thanks for myspacing awesome your weekend was.
It really made my day.
(N)

Third consecutive birthday you've missed.

Somnolent

We're all a little somnolent these days.

Blogging Break, Stupid Uni.
I had intentions of doing this worksheet last night.
Though i forgot about my alcohol and had Noodles with Soy sauce.
After a whole day of Nausea, i caved in.
Through up about 10 and went to bed afterwards.
I seems like i can't eat anything today without feeling sick.
I don't think I'm gonna be drinking for a while.
Or at least not gonna get drunk.
Still want to go clubbing non the less.

I read Karli's blog.
Oh how i hate when you make me be self-reflexive.
Gonna change my life style.
I weighed myself Friday night.
I now weight 85 :/
That's like 10+ from what i weighed in grade 10.

So gonna try eating healthier.
No more noodle box or subway unless on social occasions.
If so I'll take Libby's advice.
Vegetarian on wheat with no cheese.
Even though it tastes horrid.

I hate this assignment.
Cause it makes me feel bad.
I'm doing relative disadvantage between suburbs.
It's making me chose groupings of people.
And argue why they are a disadvantage to the community.
Like i know its probably true.
And i haven't a problem for like say the unemployed.
Buts like targeting people that are indigenous or elderly.
Stuff like that its hard to string sentences together.
Cause i don't want to sound racist or bias.
But it looks like i have no choice.

I'm contemplating changing degrees.
After recent events.
And a conversation with mum last night.
I'm thinking Psychology?
Or Maybe Justice/Psychology?
I don't know.

Numb

This house is an empty void echoing with the neighbours Chris Brown albums.

I feel somewhat better.
I slept for about 3 hours.
Stayed in bed for 6 though.
I've put on a facade.
My hangover passed long ago.
But I can't bring myself to tell anyone what happened.

I do not hear a single sound in my house.
I have not talked to anyone today.

Lie.
5.26pm it all changed.

I scared her.
I'm sorry.
I hugged her.
Told her i loved her.
And the tears came straight away.
I went from being Numb to Crying.

All i can do is tell her it'll eventually get better.
And try to catch her when she falls.

Thank you who ever you were that talked me out of calling her last night at midnight, that would have just sent her over the edge.

Now I think I'll start that stupid assignment.

Untitled

Were through the looking glass here people.

Yesterday night was memorable to say the least. I lost faith in a best friend and through everything i gained faith in a old friend that I'm gonna be spending a lot of time with.

Disclaimer:
Grammer mistakes are due to over-drinking last night and lack of sleep.

What can i say about last night.
I don't know.
I've come to realise that it is time to grow up, we don't live in the Utopia our parents have tried to create for us, nothing can shield us now. Neverland is but all to far away at this point.

I'm scared, I just can't believe what everyone went through, my mind is still trying to block it out but i still freak out every time i read one of my sisters blogs.

I know now i don't have the power over peoples thoughts, emotions and actions.
Oh how i wish i did. Life is too scary when all you can do is tell someone that it'll get better.

Thank you everyone who came. The cuddles were nice.
God it was hard letting certain people seeing me cry.

I don't think I'll be drinking for a long time.
I don't think I'll arrange another party for a much longer time.
Never again will i skull tequila or rum.

Thank you Flick and Kevin for brightening up my morning.
It was very much appreciated.

I know I'll eventually have to come with terms with what happened last night. Then deal with my own issues, then make sure someone doesn't go down that track.

I'm glad that were all pretty much a fair bit closer;

I didn't want it to be because of this.

/sigh

Fuck it.
I'll be like everyone.
Gonna give up.
Just sick of trying.
Doing all the work.

Take care.
Send me a text when your up to being a friend.
This isn't limited to just one person.
I'm just sick of it.
And Gonna live my life a little.

Good Bye.
Maybe not forever.
But for a extended period of time.
Most definitely.

Time to pick up chicks (Y).

Quack Quack Quack

I'm pretty happy. My strange dreams have returned.
Why must you always incorporate Bebo though?
Uni wasn't soo bad.
Sat with Joe and Dean and random guy.
Me and Joe once again drew masterpieces.
Revolving around one anothers suspected homosexuality and the occasional Duck.
Haha yes, we've restarted the sex with a duck thing.
Going tomorrow to my uncles in hopes of fixing my comp.
I can then upload the pictures onto blogspot.
I also miss playing online, i just want my scapegoat back.

Life's looking up, hope i haven't jinxed it.
Oh I've also discovered how good Noodle box can be.
Just took the meet and half the vegetables out.
Though I know I'm gonna get fat eventually.
But then Libby and I can combine body weight and be a force to be feared, as long as you live on a hill or on a street at a slight angle.

Gonna get ready for training.

Clean Slate

Starting life a new.
A new slate.

And I feel better already.
Gonna live in the moment and stuff.

I've learnt a valuable lesson recently.
There are only so many people you can tell specific things to.
I was blindsided by emotion.
It won't happen again.
Props to Bec Karli Em and Lib for helping me through it.
Though i do feel a burden has been lifted off my shoulders.
Its good to know who your friends are.
Haha and who your soul mate is <3.

Now to rant about things i know i now hate.

-9am lectures
-Arrogant people in lectures

I want to stress this, you should never talk more then the lecturer, your not intelligent your a fucking moron!
-People to always relate things to their children or place of employment
-People that do not heed other peoples advice when it comes to collective work

-Immaturity, both high school and university

-My speakers muffling

-My computer not working

Lets end on the brighter side.
It was good to have a Ethic's tut again.
We discussed modern day music.
& the Tutor played "Jizzed in my pants"
Oh how i love the coloration between Uni and Youtube.
It was just a blast discussing erectile dysfunctions.
And the injustice of the father eating the chicken nugget in the maccas add where the two kids are like "Its mine", "No its mine", "No its mine"
I love deep thoughtful conversations with psycho-analysis.
It brightens up my day and gives me faith in humanity.
I'm making friends at Uni, its cool.
Kinda hard inserting yourself in a group non the less.
Training tomorrow yay.
Seeing cousins Friday.
Hanging with some of the awesomest people Saturday.
Shall be sweet.

The silver lining

Training is turning to like oxygen for me.
I need it.
I have had a most horrible day.
Though after training i felt so much better.
Rob kicked my ass a few times and attempted to drop me.
Haha old man, i did not fall!

We learned a crap load of new movies.
I hate rolling.
Though we started on Buffalo and low-tiger.
So cool.
Oh and we split the class, no more annoying little children!
/dance.

"How come you didn't know the answer"

Ok like I'm the theory-nerd.
Most of the other guys are faster or stronger.
So i play the smarter game.
I can't believe he said it to me though, haha i felt good for getting it wrong.
Though i redeemed my nerdy-self with the theory behind Balik Badan.

"Theory is either black or white, much like this class. Wait, most of you are brown so it's not a good analogy"

It made us laugh.

I spent the day, worrying and fussing.
After training how pointless the quarreling is, i just don't care about it.
I'll take an attempt at practising being humble.
You're not good enough to piss me off.
So I'll ignore it.

"I'll beat the crap out of you on Thursday"

Were dear Rob's parting words.
I look forward to it old man.

Recession

Relax.
No one can not write a blog about people.
Otherwise there would be nothing to write about.
I don't blog peoples names.
Aside from Ben.
You made it obvious who it was.
I deleted to keep you happy.
No one read it, so there.

Ben i still think your a spineless fuck.
You have no sense of decency.
And I will still the police at every given opportunity.
Though you'll still protect your boyfriend.
I just can't believe someone as incompetent as you is in charge.

I've calmed down some what.
I've lost faith in the justice system so I'm looking for new careers.
I'm thinking Diplomat?
People won't be as bitch as regular people.
It'll be like a new culture, but i dunno.
I wish life would go back to the way it was.
Like being six again.
I miss having the aspiration of being the Celadon City Gym leader and marrying Erika.
Oh childish bliss, why did you leave me soo.

Haha I've convinced my sister that her laptop is alive.
And freezes on her because of her tone of voice.
I managed to unfreeze her by talking softy and giving her a name.
I named her Dell and it worked.
We all laughed.

Still procrastinating on the assignments.
Just been mad all day.
Training tonight, I don't want to go.
Though I'll be letting people down if i don't.
I'm looking forward to the weekend.
Gonna get things off my chest afterwards.

Oh! Got my electoral letter today.
Even though i won't be voting for a while.
Still its good to feel like someone considers you an adult.

Repercussions

After recent events i can say I don't want to work for the police force.
They just appear so incompetent.

Mum told me a officer threatened to charge her because he believed she was withholding evidence.

She gave names, numbers, addresses and lead them to where my uncle was recovering.
Wow, that's such an accomplice.

I sat on the balcony listening to the conversation.
I was like, you sound like a cop of neighbours.
Its just so stupid.

Overhearing my neighbours bitching.
They weren't satisfied with the police either.

Its amusing, our neighbours finally hate us as much as we hate them.
The stupid hoe next door can't even stare properly.
Though its unfortunately there still gonna be living next door.

I said some regrettably embarrassing things last night.
Stupid alcohol, but oh did i have fun.

People will probably make a big deal of things when they find out.

Waking up next to Libby was amusing.
Fatty didn't give me enough room so i went downstairs for a bit.
Couch didn't work, so i went back.
I wake up and first things i see are boobs.
= i thought, Oh its Libby.

I'm sick of being treated like a child.
I'm sick of people apologising.
I don't regret it, i had a blast.
I'm glad my friends got a taste of Serbian culture.
It'll always be a memorable birthday, for more than one reason.

First day as an adult

Dear bloggers.
Welcome to the first day of another virtual chapter.
My birthday went off with a few hitches.
Like biggg hitches.
It was makes for a remember able birthday.

I invited a few close friends.
Some couldn't make it, oh well.
I had the best day.
After awkwardness, we came together.
Friends soon joined in traditional Serbian folk dancing.
I got drunk EVENTUALLY.
Haha being drunk during hide and go seek;

not a very good idea.

Though the night eventually turned to crap.
After tremors, we had realised my uncle had crashed his car into the neighbours house, and relatively toppled the garage and completely toppled the balcony and other parts.

Police were called.
My first day as a adult.
And I'm still open as a child.
Though its good I'm getting over things.
Like self doubt.

Non the less i had a awesome day.
Not sure if next week can beat it though.

Yesterday was pretty cool.
I got to see Laura and Fleur.
Have not seen them since graduation.
Birthday texts till 3am.

I found out most of my friend did not end up going to her party.
I feel good in a sense cause it could've been my party they missed.
Still, i hope she had a good day.

I just hope mines better.
Though it'll be good having the guests show up.
Oh well;

Karli was awesome today, looking after peeps.
& Ivona as well.
Articulate drunk is the most amount of fun.
Even more fun than getting naked.

Harry potter is on the TV.
Kiddo's are upstairs.
Me and Libby are in bed together.
Insulting each other via laptops.
Haha nothing could be more amusing.

10 more minutes.

Life is a highway

Ok my last ten minutes as a child.
I regret not going to schoolies last year.
I regret waiting to grade 10 for my first kiss.
I regret not having sex with those that offered.
I regret not being more active in drama.
I regret not being more active in life.
I regret not telling people at school what i really thought.
I regret not learning how to dance.
I regret what happened with Zac.
I regret growing up.
I regret being such a bitch.
I regret not having a closer relationship with my family.
I regret not focusing on my Serbian.
I regret quitting Taekwondo.
I regret faking friendships with people in order to avoid fights.
I regret not losing more weight.
I regret not asking people out.

I am glad about the friends i have today.
I am happy being a online nerd.
I am relatively happy with the way i look.
I'm scared more than anything else, while people are stoked to turn 18 i just can't do with the pressure right now, i don't know where my life is going. I don't know if ill still be friends with the people i am now,like i hope but everyone is so sceptical about staying in touch with high school friends, i see and hear about so many fights and i just don't want that to be me. I still want to have a carefree life. I don't' want to think about voting, taxes, bills and putting food on the table. I don't want to have to worry about being in a relationship because so many people find their partner in Uni and if you don't your most likely gonna be single for the rest of your life and then theres also that 50% divorce rate to contend with, like seriously.

I just want to tuck into bed and just be 7 again, play tag, trade pokemon cards and feel more comfortable holding another guys hand because girls have coodies.
In the past couple of years our lives have gone in the complete opposite direction and it just scares me because i have no idea what the future does and does not hold.

Holy shit;

3 more minutes!

Trying to keep my head out of the clouds

Arrogance is very close to ignorance;

I try my best not to say anything to you.

On a different note
I am of the Orthodox faith.
My good Friday was yesterday.
Much like i celebrate Christmas in January.

Why am i thinking about you!
Like you were hot.
Probably the hottest girl I've known.

& I still dream about you.
I know why I kinda ended it.
I was scared;
I look forward to getting wasted on Sunday;

Play a game of I never and get it off my chest.
Damn you Sally.

I saw Dragon Ball today.
It was alright.
Goku was white; was so pissed.

& I wasn't even a fan of the show.

Last day as a teenager.
I still can't believe it.
I don't grow up.

I look forward to the next two weeks.
Its new chapter in life.
So it comes down to a to-do list.

-Fly .
-Go clubbing.

-Learn how to cook.
-Learn how to use the washing machine.

-If i fail, club the fucker to slow mechanical death.

Spend two weeks on fire
I shall blog another freak out tonight.

Holiday Parade

Hung out with Danni today.

& saw 17 again.

Surprisingly it was soooo good.
The star wars quotes.

The light sabres.
Nerdy sexual innuendos.
Oh i could see it again.
I see why Karli has such a Zac Efron crush.
:P

Good Friday.
Fish for breakfast.
I drenched it in Lemon.
Cause it smells sooo bad.
And Vege-sub for lunch.

Doing well so far.

AND I FOUND ARTICULATE!
Boo-ya!

I think i have a crush on someone.
Haha quite surprised its been a while.
Or has it?
Ether way I'm happy.

Cinema was eh.
Sold out, so many teenage girls.

Actually more teenage boys than girls.
And they cried and Efron did and it was so pathetic.
First scene of him shirtless and they start screaming.

I start laughing at Nipple Hair.

Talking with someone on msn.
No idea if there related or not.
There Serbian is different to what I'm used to.
Oh well.

I'm still hyped for some reason or another.

Gonna have a fruit salad for dinner.
Oh i found out why folks are OOO about my birthday being on easter.
Because we planned on going to church this year.
Oh well always Christmas i guess.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

It slowly approaches.

manhood.

Supposedly.

I stood up to my father.

And got a living room full if $300 worth of alcohol.

Good stuff (Y).

I'm noticing people are getting all depressed and stuff.
Myself included.
I have discovered the antidote!
Exercise.

Seriously, Tuesdays and Thursdays I'm at peace.

After training i don't give a fuck whats going on.
I just want to rest my calf muscles.

So I'm probably gonna train more often.

Tomorrow's good Friday.
; ;
I have to give up red meat and dairy products.
I hate fish.
I really really really hate fish.
So I'll be all vegetarian.

Mum and Dad are making a big fuss about my birthday.
Yet to figure out if its a good or bad fuss.
Its on Easter.
I kind of think about it as;
"We shouldn't get wasted"
type situation.

I found out dear Ben won't be coming to my drink up.
=(
I haven't seen Ben since January.
And i probably won't see him till January.
I hate when people change schools.

I went to Garden City on Wednesday.
Like after a week inside.
I had like a heart attack in public.
Kind of felt like 200,000 people were judging me.

I had to call up my relatives to invite them to my Birthday.
Not a single call lasted over 2 minutes.
My aunt called today, 50 second conversation;

Like she was looking for mum.

Though i could have made small talk.

I fear aging.

Because i don't want to have a conversations where you don't talk about yourself, i don't think any conversation should be about someones kids and what if your single!

Dark Times lie ahead younglings.

Uni next week.

URGH!
I have yet to do any work.

Oh well.
I need to find Articulate!
Oh Wednesday I saw Cassie and Shiva.
Was good to relatively catch up.
Then again 2 minute conversations and a hug.

Generation Y, the anti-social one.
Oh well all in all life's pretty swell.
Aside from Kevin groping me at Garden City.
Each day I realise how much i care for my friends.
& how much i miss them.
I may not say it, but their names are on my myspace.
(y)

Thanks for the Memories

One night and One more time
Thanks for the memories

Why is Dejan quoting Fall out boy you may ponder.
I miss drama, just that stage.
I remember my first time.
That musical.
Like i can't sing or nothing.
But i did do a pretty sweet jig with Lisa.
When i picked her up and did the spinny thing.
Just the sound of mid-performance applause.
Made it all worthwhile.

I watch to much so you think you can dance.

Like I'm not obsessed but i have been on the site.
Only once though.

I don't think theres a future in that world for me.
Thought i do contemplate choreography.
Like i have this little idea.
Kinda scripted in my head.
Of a Nightmare before Halloween Broadway kind of thing.
I hope to one day get it out there.

I still dream big.
I also thought of writing a book.

But where does one begin?

Why am i afraid of the dark?
When ever i watch any movie theres something in my room waiting to get me.
Though i fight the urges to panic.
Cause i know how much of a retard i would look shouting;

"AHH DEMENTOR!"

I read my sisters blog.
I'm happy with the new found quality time.

We played Dynasty Warriors like the old days.
& shes gonna play online with me.
Shall be cool.

I hope one day to meet my friends.
They make me laugh.
Its like replications of my friends online.

2.48 am.
Whitey can't sleep.

White nocturnal person.
No wonder Bec though i had vampiristic traits.
If only i liked 14 year ol' fan girls.
I'd be like I'm a vampire and stuff.
And they would be like O.M.G.
Remember when people talked like that?
To bad I'm not a pedophile.

Labile

Labile, word of the day.

Might be a sign.
Means "Open to change"

I'm soo tired.
So i won't rant.
Consider yourselves lucky.

I wish i went on the Maccas run with Em and co.
But had Ol' Frank take training.
Two hours of kick kick kick.

But it was good to see Mas Anja drop some random.
Made me laugh.

I hate kids.
Well not all, but one.
Hes arrogant, cocky and smug.
All i was when i started out.
Oh how i want to drop him.

Secret Ninja Senses get annoying.

I don't like when you know what I'm thinking and feeling.
Well before i have the thought.
& then lecture me on it.
But it calms me down.

I think I'm gonna buy a cook book tomorrow.
Try something new with life.
You never know.

I stood up to my father today.
Long time since i did that.
Scared shitless for ages.
But i know i did the right thing.
So now i have to figure out what I'm gonna do on my bday.

Life is good. New nicknames make me laugh.
Do i want to be Poopey or D man?
=]

Epic Uni Lectures with Joe

Have you ever gone through your book
& found something that makes me laugh
This is probably one of few things i like about Uni

Procrastinating with new found friends.

Up top is Tranny Joe with his bf Matt.
Writing reads:
"Joe is awesome"
&
"Joe is really a lady"

And the second part is Joe Fantasying about Yours truly.
What can i say, I am a Babe.

Dear Epiphany <3

Like I'm known for my midlife crises.
& I know how I'm gonna resolve my latest one.
If your reading this make sure you've

read the one i wrote beforehand.

I'm gonna solve it through the magic of film.
I'm gonna start script writing.

Do one more FTV production for the ages.
& remake the classics as "Attack of the Fans"

I'm Stoked & Thanks Fleur for the Idea.

Its good to catch up with old friends.

I can't wait for uni to start.
I think i know what I'm gonna do.
& maybe uni wont be so 'fail'.

Looks like i won't be a Pirate

Holy shit fuck.

I'm 18 in a week!

The mere thought of it freaks me out.

Like I'm looking forward to it.

Mum and dad are buying alcohol.

Which is cool.

I DON'T WANT TO BE A ADULT!
I have this urge to do something

so incredibly
Childish
Immature
Memorable

Like one last cheap shot at Maturity.
I'm taking suggestions.

So far i only got;

"Play on the Maccas Playground"
I'm so doing it.

I really hope i don't get stuck in the slide though.

I look forward to clubbing.

Though I'm doubtful that friends will be going in groups.

Things change.
I'm trying to insert myself into a Uni group.
But its hard being the random white kid.

Its weird, conversations with people without sexual innuendo's.

Doohicky

(Can't beleive its a real word)
Holidays. Peaceful. Good.
I'm contemplating on doing quite childish.

& not the good kind of childish.
No one will notice, except maybe one person.
& they will know why I've done it.
You'll get made at me.

But check your own.

I'm glad the drought is over.

I keep on having overwhelming urges to show repetitively.
Mums asking me stuff about being 'Green'.
Recycling, Global warming, stuff like that.
Makes me smile.

I read Karli's blog.
Kinda disappointed.

If Karli loses faith in causes;

what chance is there for the rest of us.
Maybe i should care about the Women on Congo more.

Nothing significant has happened.

Still stoked about my tarot reading.

Gonna have to call up slackers tomorrow.

Really hate when people don't rsvp.

I'm really curious about some of my dreams.

& the people in them.

makes me wonder...

Try to explain yourself

Mum: Whats up with your generation, why do you always have to drink?
Me: Cause life is horrible after high school and it makes up feel better.
Mum: For what two hours? Why don't you just nap instead.

Why don't we?

Have you ever realised you believe in something but you can not for the life of you justify it when it comes up in a conversation.

Why is it possible to like someones parents so much more than the person?

So much for the older generationaltional thing.

Why do people insist on you befriending someone.

I hate questions that i can't answer.
Its like being afraid of the dark.
It's pointless.
Count Dooku isn't my closet waiting to kill me.
Jimmy Carrey isn't really the cable guy,
nor is he outside my window.
And there isn't a monster under my bed,
Just Libby (Y).

Life's answers in a deck of cards

Aunt's been tarot'ing it up.

So i decided to give it a go.

3 desires and a query.

Two desires are gonna come true.

Which means I'm gonna journey in a distant land.

Find myself.
And prove myself to the world.
I'm actually stoked

I asked if me and Libby are gonna get hitched.

We are, but it won't last.
Or so the cards said.

My final desire I'm gonna keep to myself.

Cause its still pretty personal.

But the cards determined I'm stressed with a lot of inner turmoil.

They suggested i lose the extra baggage
which would be the not-so-friendly friends.
I hate how people change for immature reasons.

To date, i can say wholeheartedly i have only...

8 true friends.
But this i mean friends i have never not wanted to be friends with.
Though only 4 say hi to me when ever I'm on msn.

Ones in Warwick,

Ones in South Australia

Two have full time jobs.

though its cool; their awesome.

The cards told me i should look back;

And figure out who meant what

And who means what;

They said there's someone back there I miss.

WHICH IS CREEPY.

Cause its relatively true.

Maybe i can figure out my life with that deck of cards;

Regardless the outlook is bright

So I'm happy.

So I'm gonna start up Ab Pro again.
Train for half a hour each night.

& just enjoy life till the adventures start.

Amnesty Storm Troopers

Ok so i get out of a lecture

And decide to walk Joe to the bus stop

And Tracy to the myer centre.

And a Amnesty representative was like
"You guys want to sign a petition to stop violence against women?"
I was the only one that said yeah.

Seemed like the thing that would get Karli into my pants.

I kid I kid.

But she would not stop going on.

I was the fool to say i didn't extensively know the background to this women's rights organisation for in Congo.
This woman would not stop talking after i made attempts to flee.

About half way we discovered i wasn't 18 and wasn't to legally sign the petition.
BUT SHE WOULD NOT STOP TALKING!
Joe left like after 10 mins.
He was like "Dejan, cya man"
& I was like bye Joe,

& attempted to walk to him.
But i swear she had mind powers.

Its like that scene in Star Wars Ep 3.
Where Anikin is using Force Choke on Padme.

Except im so much more of a babe than Natalie Portman.

(H)

I'm all for support a cause.
Even if i think the petition isn't going to go anywhere.

Like how am i gonna effect Congo's government?
I'm gonna send you this thing my tutor sent me.

Oh it made me cry from laughter.

I also have an overwhelming urge to do something for the environment.
Kick some ass for mother nature and all that.

I still continue to love ethics.

We argue about religion and sexuality.

Social issues and what not.

Theres someone in the class, thats so obviously gay.

And i get frustrates that he won't come out.

I don't know why.

"fo shizzle mah nizzle"
what do you say to someone that starts a msn convo to you like that?

seriously;

Midnight Study

Its 2.15am.

And I'm still awake.

I'm making great progress with my assignment non the less.

But i tell you, i will never ever ever again;

Want to read a act or a Crime and Misconduct Commission report.

I'm tired to the extent that i have accidentally written

"Sex industry"and "Sexy Industry" numerous times in this report.

I'm blogging to try and restanatise myself before i can continue.

I'm skipping tomorrows morning lecture.

Fuck it.
I know of people that are gonna be at the uni at 7 am to hit the library.

I'd much rather work through the night and sleep in.

All i have to do is deal with dads lectures.

But i guess this is good i guess.
I've gotten my first taste of a full uni assignment.

I'm worried though, its worth 30% of my grade.

And its pretty rushed.

Not to mention that you can not do this assignment in the 2000 word limit.

Its scary though, criteria sheet says they wont read anything over 2500.

An im worried cause they may consider intext referencing to the word limit.

1600~words so far.

Im about 60-70% in.
I'm confident it'll be done by tomorrow.

It was good to get back into training.

Though i felt so out of tune after take a week off.

Stupid Flu.

Ahmad and Mahmud still make me laugh though.

10 year old ninjas that pick fights with me.

But i got no problem, they'll soon get better than me.

But then again its all for the next generation.

Theres no glory or recognition in modesty.

7-9 of Kung-fu'ing and what not.

Half a hour of mucking around and talking about Martial art movies.

Now this.
Oh how my body aches.

I wanted to make a note about something Mr Kent told me.
You eventually lose all your high school friends.
I don't beleive its all true, but theres some truth their.
I find some peoples actions to be immature.
And i know;

"Coming from Dejan"
But then again i even have my limits.

Gabi called today, spent about half a hour.

Poor girl uses up too much credit on me ><.

Oh well interstate friendships are awesome.

Can't wait to go down south for mid-year break.
Its also good to get someones neutral perspective

on events in my life.

Easter Break is coming up.
It doesn't feel like 7 weeks of uni.
Like I've learnt stuff but not an overwhelming amount.
I shall use that 10 days to catch up on all assignments.
I hope.

I can't wait till thursday night.
When i get to delete my history.
Good this assignment has made me good some disturbing things.

For old times sake.

For a long time i am at peace.

Happy with life.

I overcame a great hurdle last night.

One could say after 3 years of procrastination.

And boy am i proud of myself.

I've come to the sad realisation that we have to live in the moment.

Cause i can mosh around my room all i wont.

And i still won't be back at Supernova.
But that won't stop me, gotta do something when everyone asleep.

I'm still stoked that he doesn't hate me.

I still recall my first blog where i planned my life.
He was supposed to be the best man at my wedding.
After all he was the best friend;

Where everyone else failed in comparison too.
He was the Turk to my JD.

But life moves on;
And Memories will remain memories.

Good luck with your life old friend.

If we don't talk again.
I wish you luck with your pursuits.

And if they pay off and you become famous;

I'll be able to say i used to be best friends with that guy.

I feel like I'm getting older.
All i want to do is nap.
I have been everyday.
Though it could just be the procrastinating.

I only regret two things now.
Quitting Taekwondo and leaving this assignment till the last minute.
Wonder if i can do a 2000 word essay in 3 days.
I hope so.

While i can whinge about politics, social issues and people.
I won't.
Today's a good day.
Thank you Karli for our rants.
They make me feel better.

Today i also accomplished something else.

I had a vegetarian sub.

Oh Melly

I'm gonna miss you.
I didn't cry though, cause i'll see you in three weeks.

Still.

Family Rememdies

OK so life is like pretty lame.
Still have the flu.
And now an ear infection.
My calf muscle cramped like ????.
And i have no motivation to plan my birthday.
And i hate being soo selfish.
But for some strange reason; I'm so happy.
My dreams have returned.
Last night i had the best dream, my mind feeze framed it.
In the dream it froze and what would be the 'climax'.
And i woke up and smiled.
The night before i had one that made me laugh.
Me and Karli were discussing Chris brown and Rhianna on bebo.
It had no point but i laughed when i woke.
I love my tutors, i'm so glad there down to earth.
I'm pissed cause i found out single people can't adopt.
And that was my plan B in life.
Karli/Libby, were gonna get married at some stage in our lives.
Supernova was sweeeet.
I got some pokemon cards.
Met some awesome people.
And two more ff action figures to add to my collection.
Tomorrow is mel's going away party.
:(
My ear still hurts.
And i can't see a doctor till monday.
So mum put oil in my ear.
It kinda worked.
Reminds me of when i was sunburnt.
Dad suggested i rub myself with sour cream.
T_T (didn't do it)
I'm sick of things, and people.
I hate ignorant people at uni.
I laugh cause you look down at me.
Fuck it all.
Time to go back to a motto we all once new.
We all loved.
And have forgotten.

Hakuna Matata.