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Life is a highway

Ok my last ten minutes as a child.
I regret not going to schoolies last year.
I regret waiting to grade 10 for my first kiss.
I regret not having sex with those that offered.
I regret not being more active in drama.
I regret not being more active in life.
I regret not telling people at school what i really thought.
I regret not learning how to dance.
I regret what happened with Zac.
I regret growing up.
I regret being such a bitch.
I regret not having a closer relationship with my family.
I regret not focusing on my Serbian.
I regret quitting Taekwondo.
I regret faking friendships with people in order to avoid fights.
I regret not losing more weight.
I regret not asking people out.

I am glad about the friends i have today.
I am happy being a online nerd.
I am relatively happy with the way i look.
I'm scared more than anything else, while people are stoked to turn 18 i just can't do with the pressure right now, i don't know where my life is going. I don't know if ill still be friends with the people i am now,like i hope but everyone is so sceptical about staying in touch with high school friends, i see and hear about so many fights and i just don't want that to be me. I still want to have a carefree life. I don't' want to think about voting, taxes, bills and putting food on the table. I don't want to have to worry about being in a relationship because so many people find their partner in Uni and if you don't your most likely gonna be single for the rest of your life and then theres also that 50% divorce rate to contend with, like seriously.

I just want to tuck into bed and just be 7 again, play tag, trade pokemon cards and feel more comfortable holding another guys hand because girls have coodies.
In the past couple of years our lives have gone in the complete opposite direction and it just scares me because i have no idea what the future does and does not hold.

Holy shit;

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