Pensive

Eastern philosophies and lessons learnt through them are horrid
I was always told by a specific man he could tell when i was lieing.
& I now know why!

Modesty
Ok Ok
Stop laughing and hear me out.
Today i had to tell a fib.
A white lie.
I wasn't going to attend training cause of an assignment.
Its technically true.
Though I'm not doing it from Uni.
Doing it at home.

So i texted the instructor that i wasn't attending tonight.
I felt like i kidney exploded.
I felt physically ill.
Just from a simple text.
& when he texted back.
I started to freak out.

Like; FUCK CAN HE READ MY MIND!
But it was a 'hope to see you next week' reply.

I dislike this.
Its not fair.
I should be able to lie.
And not have nightmares and regrets about it.

What is wrong with me?

I'm glad most people i know are feeling somewhat better.
It makes me feel better.
I'm freaking out about exams.
Like ; ; freaking out.

Oh i'd like to thank dad.
My vege/sushi diet.
right

HE BRINGS HOME PIZZA.

; ;

I like pizza, and i didn't want to eat it.
But it was pizza or apples.

I'm trying to give up coke.
Urgh its so hard.
Only been two days and i want to cave in.
I need suger >.>

I'll finish this blog another time.
I've had to rewrite it.
And I'm waiting for someone to reply so i can sort things out.
I hate 15 minute interval conversations.