Apt

I think I'm ready for my legal foundations exam tomorrow. It's my last, my hardest, my most terrifying. For the past two days I've literally state down and not left my room until i have gone through the material i felt i needed to go through the exam. For a man that doesn't study spending 8 hours straight reading and writing is unnatural. Though, what must be done, must be done.

I'm worrying about the essay question, because its random so i can't really prepare for it. I've come to realise a few things so i guess its time to ponder. The notion of work worries me in the sense that i think i eliminates the fun from you. Once you theories its because you're most likely gonna deal with people that you don't get along with, hence you become frustrated, you spend too long at your place of work and you become tired. I don't really want to become 'less fun', granted i know ill have to mature at some stage, but something likes like sexual innuendo's i think I'm gonna keep those up as long as i have the capability to pee standing up, perhaps even beyond that time; stating 'that's what she said' to my grandchildren seems like a delightful idea.

Relationships; to be quite frank at our age people are taking them far to seriously. I've found myself distancing from people that devote their entire life to one person. I'm not saying it's stupid but illogical perhaps? If we're going to be 'friends' i would like you on call and have the ability to hang out, and by hang out i don't mean i want to be your third wheel. Also if you intend on giving your all to this person, don't expect me to pick you up if it fall's apart, it's a logical choice. I see more and more of my friends going into the cycle and my stomach churns at the notion that one day i could be this conceded. Sure i get a partner is superior to friends in some regards but i just don't think i could just rely on one person, even in regards of marriage, i don't just want to be stuck at work and then at home, i mean like i still want to have friends and have fun.

Lately I've been happier, because I've been setting goals. They've been minute goals but i have been accomplishing them non the less. The new theory is if you have no goal for the day or the week, you have nothing to be be happy about because you have nothing to achieve, unless you get some surprise, so perhaps more goals for the holidays?

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